babybluez

2006-08-03T07:52:00.000-07:00

I BELIEVE IN MIRACLES.

2006-01-27T00:18:00.000-08:00

Jesus said, 'Peace I leave with you. My peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.' John14:27

'my Holy God

2006-01-10T03:11:00.000-08:00

I wish you Jesus
I could wish you joy and peace.
To last a whole life long.
I could wish you sunshine.
Or a cheerful little song Or wish you all the happiness.
That this life could bring.

Chorus:
But I wish You Jesus (3x) More than anything.

I could wish you leaves of gold.
And may your path be smooth.
I could wish you treasures.
Or that all your dreams come true.
And I could wish you paradise.
That every day be spring.

Chorus:
But I wish You Jesus (3x) More than anything.

Ending:'Cause when I wish you Jesus I've wished you everything.

2005-04-25T22:08:00.000-07:00

YOU WERE THERE
I wonder how it must have felt
When David stood to face Goliath on a hill
I imagine that he shook with all his might
Until you took his hand and held on tight

Cause You were there,
You were there
In the midst of danger's snare
You were there
You were there always
You were there when the hardest fight
Seemed so out of reach
Oh, You were there
You were always there
You were always there

So there he stood upon that hill
Abraham with knife in hand was poised to kill
But God in all His sovereignty has bigger plans
And just in time, You bought a lamb

Cause you were there,
You were there
In the midst of the unclear
You were there
You were there always
You were there when obedience
Seemed to not make sense
You were there
You were always there
You were always there

So haven't I learnt that my ways
Aren't as high as Yours are
And you alone keep the universe
From crumbling into dust
You are God though we would
Not have understood You
There You were...
Hanging blameless on a cross
You would rather die than leave us in the dark
Every moment, every planned coincidence
Just all makes sense
With Your last breath

You were there,
You were there
During history's darkest hour
You were there
You were there always
You were the Victor and the King
You were the power in David's swing
You were the calm in Abraham
You are the God who understands
You are the strength when we have none
You are the living, Holy one
You were, You are and You will always be
The Risen Lamb of God

`thankyouGod

2005-04-01T20:59:00.000-08:00

Jesus Alpha and Omega Immanuel King of Kings Light of the World Bright Morning Star Prince of Peace Wonderful Counselor Lamb of God Saviour of the World The Good Shepherd The Way Lord of Lords Anointed One Bread of Life Chief Cornerstone Great High Priest Heir of All Things Holy and Righteous One Lord of Glory Messiah Teacher The Truth Word of God The Most Holy

`My God

2005-03-11T12:42:00.000-08:00

i am running after You.
racing against time.
will You pick me up when i stumble and fall?

yes, my child
"Because I love you with an everlasting love..." Jeremiah 31:3

2005-02-19T21:19:00.000-08:00

loved
my dear heavenly Father,
thankew for being my Valentine! thankew for being the everlasting lover of my life (: my greatest, most wonderful God, a v.belated Valentine's Day to u (:

ur child alway,

chinese new yr '05

cny was gd (:

wonderfully gd

awesome time shopping for red clothes

but was quite futile

amazing mahjong sessions

great bonding w cousins, relatives, frens

yummy fattening goodies

attempted to wear red evryday

but to no avail

happy belated b-day to pig n andrew!

cny...

ends in 5days time

valentine's day

open sun on the 13th

a.ying kheng shared with us 8tips on love and dating

discovered u.roland is a sweet gentleman!

important lesson:

God wants you to haf 1st best, do not settle for 2nd best

dearie's b-day on 14th

happy belated b-day!

aww...valentine's day

lucky babe. haha

i love the:

bookmarks n cards, pinky lady, me to u, princess bears, colourful scrunchies, quackxy waxy tt, beautiful 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 display, glow-in-the-dark butterflies, pretty girly magnets, fishy club bottle, sweet-smelling roses, n the never ending chocos, brownies, cookies n sweets..... (:

heh

i feel so blessed

thankew so much for evrything!

went to PS with dearie n mich

watched i do i do

funny n hilarious

amazing thing...i fell aslp

my day ended with a love letter to God

was at SAJC funfair jus now, and i seriously felt like a sweltering white adidas pig, haha. well, it was super duper hot n humid but i enjoyed myself. the food wasn't too bad, n the games were quite fun n i braided my hair. oh, highlight of the day: my lovestruck humongous heart shape garfield balloon. haha. had to lug it frm habour front to home. pig said she felt so embarrassed walking beside me. haha. but it's so pretty, so red, so cute and it's in the shape of a heart! i luv heart shape stuffs. haha. did some hw with pig n her frens at macs, n shortly later, pig n i proceeded to do some shopping with my pretty balloon. haha. yup, n pretty balloon is currently floating in my bedroom. (:

`struck

2005-02-05T20:48:00.000-08:00

someday
someday this world will know wad God's love is all about...
someday they will acknowledge his presence and accept him...
someday all the mountains will bow, and the seas will roar...
For my God.. for Him alone...
i believe that day will come
i believe in Him, the creator of this world.

i wait patiently for Him, for His love to dwell in us, the whole nation, the whole world.
i pray that He'll be everything to you, more than a story, more than words on a page, the air that you breathe, the water that you thirst for, ur help in time of need, ur everlasting lover.
i want to proclaim to the world that i found, a love that turned my life around, a God that transformed me and made me feel worthy, loved.

He, my God loves you...He gave up everything that He loved, his one and only son, so that He might gain ur love, if you receive the gift of His son, Jesus, you'll receive Him, and nothing, i promise you, nothing, will ever separate you from His love again, come receive Him and He'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen. He has always been Father and will always be Father, my question is... Will you be his child? He's right here waiting for you...

if you want to accept Him, simply pray this prayer:

God,
I do not know you personally, but I want to know you. I believe that Your Word, the Bible is true. I repent for hardening my heart toward you,and delighting myself in things you hate. I don't want to go to hell; I really want to be free of my sin. Come into my heart and cleanse me of the guilt of my sins and give me the power to overcome those sins. I want to be Your child and learn of Your ways. Keep me from evil and save my soul. I ask this in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen

the day will come

2005-01-12T19:51:00.000-08:00

He's in control
i know i haven't been updating blog entries. but here i am. tired, but happily alive. today's mom's birthday. God has really bless me with an ultra wonderful mom and i am so thankful for that. if i were a mom, i wanna be like my mom. she's my role model. (:
sch has been great. God has once again bless me with gd teachers. it's always nice seeing my frens. evry1 clad in green. a mass of green. it's my final yr in tkg... i wanna make the best out of this yr. my resolution: be a gd testimony for Christ. in a world like today, haven't we all seen the urgency of getting ppl to know Jesus Christ? the tsunami is dreadful, many ppl have lost their loved ones, family, friends, some say end times may be coming, some say we may all be raptured, but Jesus is the new covenant, n there'll be a 2nd coming, and no matter when He comes, let us all learn to be gd testimony, Jesus-infectors for Him, he keeps his promises and i believe in Him. God is in control of evrything!
no matter wad happens, we can always depend on Him, even if the waves come crashing down, and ppl dying.

Still
When the oceans rise
And thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father, You are King over the flood
I will be still
Know You are God

Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me
Within Your mighty hand

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know His power
In quietness and trust

`of evrything

2004-12-17T23:24:00.000-08:00

We're Not That Far From Bethlehem
Underneath the stars
Just a simple man and wife
Somewhere in the dark
His words cut the silent night
Take my hand, for the child
That you carry is God's own
And though it seems the road is so long

Chorus:
We're not that far from Bethlehem
Where all our hope and joy began
For in our arms we'll cherish Him
We're not that far from Bethlehem

Let ur celebrate
As the Christmasses go by
Learn to live our days
With our hearts near to the child

Ever drawn, ever close
To the only love that lasts
And though 2000 years have passed

2nd Chorus:
We're not that far from Bethlehem
Where all our hope and joy began
For when our hearts still cherish Him
We're not that far from Bethlehem

2004-12-08T17:25:00.000-08:00

my helment of`
currently reading the five ppl you meet in heaven by Mitch Albom, it's really nice and cool. this is the beginning of the book, 'This is a story about a man named Eddie and it begins at the end, with Eddie dying in the sun. I might seem strange to start a story with an ending. But all endings are also beginnings. We just don't know it at the time.' well... a rather thought-provoking book. trying my best to finish reading it by tonight, before i leave for the land of the rising sun. this is gonna be my 3rd trip this nov, dec hols and last trip for the yr.

i am really so blessed and fortunate to haf a God who has given me so much. Thankew my wonderful God for great parents who love the 3 of us so dearly. (: well anyway, cos of my japan trip, i had to miss meta camp. really sad cos most of my church frens are there right now, and u get to grow closer to God... yup, but thank God tt joan and pig are still here. heh. now tt this week is dedicated to the camp week, it has certainly brought back so much memories frm last yr's camp. a much closer walk with God, the new frens i've made, the v.interesting talks by neville tan, my sweet and nice SB who washed my plate, haha, the late night talks, Omega Night, my crush, etc and loads more.... it was nice and sweet. well, camp was cool, great and absolutely wonderful! Thank God for ppl who haf the desire to serve u in organizing camps for youngsters to know u more. (:

yah! so, it's confirmed, i am gonna get baptized with my 2 closest pals in church on the 19th! (: right now, i am not tt excited cos... i dunno... i am more excited bout japan? yup... haha, and i already know my baptism verse. haha. well yesterday, while i was hanging out at pig's hse, pig's daddy was telling the both of us, joan and our baptism verse. joan's verse is funny. hahaha... not funny funny, if u get wad i mean, haha, but it's jus sooo her, the old her. yup. oh nvm if u dun get it. heh. as for me, the way he chose my verse was interesting... haha.

anyway, i gotta continue packing my luggage. ciao... bye! (: God bless!

`salvation

2004-12-03T18:24:00.000-08:00

enough
my thailand trip was gd. the shopping was fab, the company was great. 4 days of non-stop shopping, but it was so tiring...haha, watched alexander there, and it's disgusting,.... so many gay scenes :/ oh and i realized it's M-18 in sing... eee... haha, yup. so, it's decided tt i am flying off to japan next weds. with dad, and the mighty health freak (:
watched bridget jones diary with xin jus now. it was hilarious. hahaha. could not stop luffing. found out tt it's NC-16 when we were jus bout to step into the cinema and we had to put on a straight face. yup... her lover was so sweet (: haha.
i shall start writing christmas cards (: gd day!

passion

2004-11-25T17:32:00.000-08:00

gone
yes, my tagboard is gone... kinda miss it tho, sigh, anyway, nice adora helped me to remove it, u certainly need all the help when ur a computer dinosaur. heh, tt's me. anyway, i am gonna go thailand tmr! leaving early morn. yah! can't wait, tho it's gonna be my 5th trip, i mean who can resist shopping and eating. haha, currently at the office, working... and i jus got my 1st pay! i worked for it (: well, obviously. gonna work for another 28mins... i haf to endure... haha, anyway, see ya when i return. (:

tagboard n me

2004-11-24T13:02:00.000-08:00

slammeddd
okie... am i a snob? haha, maybe, maybe not. 1st time getting called a snob, maybe i haf offended some1... haha. sry if i haf offended any1, tt includes the rocker. yup, i feel like deleting the tagboard... hm... maybe i shld. haha.
replies:
ellie:
hey, yup. haha, some of them were really cute. haha, i like the asian guy best, but he looks gay. haha. glad u and ur sis enjoyed it (:
ahsoh:
hey, haha, thanx. (: i agree with u tt i am super pampered. haha. i shall try to change if i am a snob tho. haha. thanx (:
joel:
hey! haha, i certainly dunno who bfec rocker is. wanna find out tho. haha, thanx for tagging anyway. (:

unknown

2004-11-23T12:08:00.000-08:00

replies:
moo:
hey! thankew for tagging. haha, had lotsa fun shopping, hanging out, etc...with u and dearie today. haha. haf fun in m.diane's wedding and the trip to melaka w k.ang. so interesting eh? haha. take care babe! (:
bfec rocker:
hey, i am sry tt i am acting so 1*beep*2 (well, wateva u mean, which makes u sick) and snobbish... yup, really sry, i din know i was 1, but hey, thanx for letting me know. (: shall watch my behaviour in the future, and pls pray for me k. cos He's the only 1 who can make the impossible possible, yup.. thankew and i am really sry, anyway, God bless! (:
pig:
HEY!!! ur finally back after many long days... haha. hope u had lotsa fun with ur family (: i am gonna go for my shopping spree in less than 3days time... (: yah, this time u won't get shorts filled with nice red hearts (: btw, did u bring it to kL? haha. oh, mama mia was gd, tho my health freak sis said tt there were too many songs. haha. take care babe! (:
jo:
hey babe! haha, ur not alone (: sry, can't pack u in the luggage, i haf a weight limit, and ur definately heavier than tt. haha (: God bless you. btw, i am leaving for thailand on fri. see ya when i am back. (:
ellie:
hey. linked u already. thanx for tagging. haha. yea, jus watched it. it was really good! the asian guy was really cute. haha, see ya around in church (:
andy:
hey, wad's wrong with my infrequent updates. haha, hope ur having lotsa fun studying in aus. we all miss u, especially ur special someone. (: haha. btw, thanx for the conversation i had with u on sun, really appreciate it. (:

dancing QUEEN

2004-11-20T00:10:00.000-08:00

in the end
well..we din go home and i din get to watch sing idols. but jz jz messaged me the results and i was devastated.... wad? how can olinda be out? tt's so depressing. haha. well, as cow was shopping with her frens in bugis junction, dad, mom and me went to some hotel for dinner. the hotel beside bugis junction, and tt's... inter-continental? yea, shld be.
yah! so glad cow has ended her Os. she has offically become my shopping bud (: love tt cow sis of mine. she's one silly health freak cow. hehe. 2nd sis is cool, she's a role model to me, she really relied on God even during her exams. she was so peaceful and happy. and she found joy in studying, tt's wad i want, i wanna rely on God in every circumstances. yup, now tt cow's exams are over, and jz jz' exams will end on mon, we can go watch mama mia next tues. i've been waiting, and waiting and waiting... FINALLY!
gonna watch the incredibles tmr with church ppl in the morn, followed by a date with woman? haha, i dunno... maybe, maybe not, women usually take super long to decide. haha, after tt, drum practice in church and off i go to the airport to meet pig, cher and sis. this is gonna be my 3rd consecutive week at the airport... gonna be there 2 more times.. haha.
okie, now i shall continue raving about my surabaya trip, day 4, gotta call ian soon...
day4:
-breakfast (prepared by chresty's maid. pretty gd (: )
-stairways to heaven (again.. the guy is so sweetttt)
-picked steph (chresty's sis) frm sch (cool sch, she's in junior high. and there's a senior high sch which is link to her sch. apparently sm1 stole a hp frm steph's schmate and the senior high guys found out, decided to bash the guy and trash his poor bike) haha
-shopped at some shop (clothes were pretty nice and cheap!)
-visited ronnet smt.. supermarket (apparently, i went bonkers and i bought 26packets of maggi mee, chresty said tt they were nice, so ya... bought loads of other stuff too. i love the place!)
-frog legggsss.... for dinner (haha, initial i din want to eat it, i mean it's the froggy's legsss... how can any1 possibly eat it? but after much persuasion frm them and the froggy's legs, haha, it looked as if it was saying, eat me! eat me! heh, i decided to haf my v.1st bite. it was so gd! haha, so tender and soft. yum! )
-watched stairways to heaven (as usual, the guy was so sweet, and i think midway thru the show, i fell aslp... heh)
replies:
woman: hey! fancy u using the name i gave u. haha. woman! pretty woman! haha, yup, shopping is absolutely great, heh u shld make up ur mind and go shop with me (:
out of point: hey! haha, u haf to pour water onto the coal, u can also use the water for ur face, yup... tt was wad my fren told me. haha, if i remembered correctly, we went to the jaccuzi after visiting the sauna.. hm, can't really remember, anyway, thanx, linked u already (:
jo: i miss u too!!! haha, u lame person. haha, u took so many lame pics, but they were nice (:
pig: wad's next? ur gonna wear tt pretty heart filled shorties i gave u. haha, i am sure u will need it someday, hm.. when u get pregnant. yup. haha. yup, it's a 'competition' between me and ster. so lame. haha. see ya tmr (:
joel: wad?? we aren't crazy... we are very much sane (: haha. study hard for ur exams! all the best!
okie... decided not to reply the rest, i am sry, i am too lazyyy.... ciao.... bye (:

it doesn't matter

2004-11-19T18:06:00.000-08:00

busy
right..joce's working real hard, this is her 4th day working this hols. in fact she's slogging like a bull. moo and dearie doesn't agree..the ultimate truth is they are right, heh, i've been taking lil naps now and then, using the com whenever available. but i certainly enjoy working at my family's company, it's absolutely fun. i get to look at pretty, fanciful jewelries and it makes me want to own all of them. heh. i once told a person diamonds, jewelries are a girl/woman's best fren. but he doesn't understand why. it's smt guys unfortunately dun understand. right now, i still agree with my statement. okie, this is a promise to myself. by 21, i mus haf my very 1st diamond. (: yup. hehe.
baptism interview this sun, i am having butterflies in my stomach. i am gonna meet an elder and a deacon. i think so... it's a 2 versus 1 thing. haha. well, but God's in me, and i am jus gonna answer with faith. why i wana get baptized? simply because it's an outward testimoney of my faith and because Jesus did it and he wants us to do it. yup. so ppl, go get baptizd, and keep me in ur prayers. thankew (: oh, btw, gonna get baptized with 2 very important ppl in my life, 2nd sis and pig. (: i can't wait...
gonna leave for thailand, my 5th time there, next fri, it's gonna be a shopping trip. haf i told u how much i adore shopping? heh, dad isn't goin with his queen and the 3 princesses, haha. so my 2aunts are joinin us. 2nd sis, the health freak, haha, said tt we're definately going to lose weight, cos there're simply too much shopping and walking to do. haha, btw, she said tt she's on a diet. tt's poo-ish. haha. oh, we're apparently going to exercise too... bleahx. haha. actually, i want daddy to go, cos he knows where all the gd food are, and he really spend lots on food. whereas mom is super, she buys like there's no tmr... during my 3rd trip there, with dad, mom and 2nd sis, mom bought 8pairs of shoes... women... haha. hm.. i may not be going to the land of kiwis, dad said tt right now, we've 3 choices, india, japan and new zealand. yup... initially, out of these 3, i wanted to visit india, i mean, it will be quite cool right? but smt happened yesterday and it made me change my mind... yup, but dad will decide. i am sure dad knows best for all of us (:
btw, this is the super summarized version of my remaining 6 days in surabaya:
day2:
-the long drive to batu
-lunch at some cl restaurant (food was great! tho toilet really sucks.. )
-stayed at the resort
-played monkey at the warm pool
-visited sauna. (i was close to becoming a roasted pig. heh)
-had gd fd for dinner (us: true indos.. we used our hands k. haha)
-visited the library
-conclusion: gd!
day3:
-watched abit of rasputin (cool! a russian movie)
-maze in the morn, followed by badminton
-american breakfast (yummy!)
-met chrest's greatgrandma, etc.. (so cool, she has a greatgrandma!)
-visited amusement park:
*bird park (chrest's grandpa is so cute! hui ying's name became parrot, really lame. haha)
*hantu place ( shi han n me freaked out, we closed our eyes thruout the long,freaky journey)
*some more places.....
-more badminton (real great! i think i lost weight. heh)
-played basketball at cold pool, monkey at warm pool
-visited sauna (i kept pouring water onto the coal. super warm)
-sandwhiches, fried tou fu, french fries and cup noodles for dinner (chrest's grandparents were so sweet, they ordered room service for us)
-borrowed monopoly frm game room
day4:
-woke up late
-had buffet for breakfast
-visited library again (fell aslp which reading the wishing chair. heh)
-packed luggage
-left for another resort:kusuma smt.. (they had an apple farm,etc.. so cool (: we were suppose to pluck apples, but unfortunately, they weren't ripe..)
-visited safari (real fun, stayed in the car, the animals were a joy to watch, they were roaming about and they certainly look so majestic)
-indo food for dinner (yum!)
-long journey back (talked bout evrything under the sun)
-bathed, unpacked
-watch stairways to heaven (aww....so sweet!)
okie...i will blog bout day 4 to 7 another day, ciao... gonna go home now, gdbye! may God bless all of u. (:

at work

2004-11-16T19:21:00.000-08:00

my white christmas
i can't wait for christmas! i enjoy all the hassle and bustle. the christmas joy is here and i want to share it, to proclaim to the whole world God's ever so wonderful love. yah! i am gonna haf a christmas baptism. it's so exciting, my heart is pounding rapidly, and i am waiting in anticipation. christmas.. i long for christmas.. was shopping with plankie for christmas cards earlier on, bought 2 boxes. the christmas cards are all so pretty. (:

okie.. now i am all ready to yak bout my great 7days stay in surabaya.
day1:
woke up super early, bout 8plus. did some last min packing, and we were all ready to pick chresty up before heading to the airport. a big thankew to all our parents for sending us (hui ying, shi han, ham and me) there, and also to puff and dearie. (: u guys are so sweet, especially dearie. i love the prezzie u gave (: oh, and thankew to all those who send take care msgs.. so sweet of u guys. anyway, we had burger king for breakfast and it was time to say bye and depart... tears of joy rolled down my cheek...(as if, heh) it was time to go, yah! we travelled with SQ, while chrest travelled with garuda, and SQ's service was so gd, but the fd was kinda horrible.. yup, in the aeroplane, i realized that stupid, careless me had forgotten to bring my specs, but there was nothing i could do, haha, soo.. i had to wear my contacts for all 7 long days... during the flight, i yaked non-stop and i am so sry shi han for bearing with me.. heh, we finally arrived and it was my 1st time stepping into surabaya, no words were able to describe tt joy. haha. right... it was blazing hot, and i was like a sweltering pig, and the surabaya international airport really sucks... no offence, but it's true. placing an air-con in the immigration hall equals to having no air-con at all...thank God for changi airport. we spotted chresty as she came trudging in like a business woman, well, she was carrying her laptop u see. haha, we took our luggage and went to meet her parents and sis... her parents are such lovely ppl, and her sis is a dear, (: we were conversing in eng, cl, and chrest was also our translator. after arriving at her cozy home, i was all set to... use the toilet, heh, i had been waiting and waiting since arriving at surabaya international airport, yup. after putting our luggage in the room, we proceeded to a typical indo restaurant, the fd was finger-licking gd. yummy yum yum... some of us ordered coconut juice, and it was weird, it was pink, and it din taste like coconut-ish at all... lunch ended and we went home 'it was my home of 7 gd, enjoyable, well-spent days'. yup, as we unpacked, we watched 2 dvds, it was so boring tt i fell aslp. then, it was time to head to supermall, yes, it's super and so so huge, it was a long ride there, and chresty's chauffeur drove us there. thankew to uncle chauffeur. we shopped, shopped, shopped, i am pretty pleased with my buy, 3contact lenses case, (1 each for dearie, moo and me) and 3 ultra cute pom pom purin wrappers, i am relieving my childhood, i used to go crazy over the fat yellow dog.. haha. we had AnW for dinner, the curly fries were great and it was time to head home. we met chrest's uncle, aunt and cute lil cousin, and they were kind enuff to drive us home. nice, sweet indos (: we finally reached home and the day ended with a black-out. it was really cool and exciting, haha, poor hui ying was busy showering. i really thank God tt by then, i had already taken my bath. i would haf screamed if i were the one stuck in the toilet. oh last but not least, i haf to say this, chresty's ceiling is really so beautiful, it was painted with many nice glow in the dark, starssss... (: today is only the beginning...

day2:
i shall blog bout it another day, my fingers are tired. time for them to take a rest. ciao (:

in sing

2004-11-14T21:28:00.000-08:00

back
i am back frm indo. my 1 long week hols has come to an end. back to reality. anyway, indo (surabaya) has been added to joce's list of fav countries. i love the place, chresty's family, the other 4, the yummy delicious fd, and the never-say-stop shopping. sometime this week, i shall narrate my indo days. see ya ard. (: thank God for the wonderful trip! praise Him forever. (:

to reality

oh, i have to mention this. today was funny. my church clique came in red. cny red. haha. pig said tt 1 in particular looked like he was going for some sort of cny wedding, haha. wad's next ppl?

2004-11-02T20:11:00.001-08:00

pumped up
had lunch with dad after sch. i really enjoy spending time with him (: we talked bout many things, basically on studies and sch, and my cousin. my cousin is in aus, a yr older and will be going to university to study medicine the next yr, while i am here trying my best to remember all my sec3 stuff. wad a great diff between 2 cousins in 2 countries less than 6hrs apart. how i wish the sing edu minister will implement the swiss edu system. gonna be really interesting i guess. u get to choose wad u want to learn, the way of running and handling the sch, and u get a work attachment.. interesting... this is so social studies...but i still love sch. (:

had lotsa fun with dearie and moo last fri, unfortunately moo had to leave early. we ate and we ate and we ate... it was basically a session of 'who can eat the most food.' haha. oh, and i haf to take my words back about kfc tom yam chicken tasting so wonderful... well, isn't tt great after all, crispy chicken is still the best (: the beach was really pretty, and the 3 of us haf an 'island' there. it was so so lame, haha. and yes, as usual, we took many photos... but unfortunately, due to my itchy-fied fingers, i played with the camera, and now i can't get it uploaded in the comm. heh, it really sucks... but wad's done is done. hehe. anyway, the 3 of us haf decided to visit the beach sometime this yr. hehe

went to watch ladder49 with chrest last sat, it was so so so good, the feeling of saving life. wow... haha, well, the sad thing was, the main character joaquim phoenix died in the end, it was so touching... i cried a little.. yup, and something tt i really dun understand is, why in the world do ppl make love before marriage? the movies, songs, make it seem as if it is right, it's normal...common..but it's jus simply so... wrong.. and stupid and dumb, i haf a classmate who said tt she wants to make love before she dies, regardless whether she's married or not... it's funny, haha, but it's jus so wrong..anyway, after the movie, we had lunch at yoshi before walking aimlessly at nowhere and guess who we saw? haha, i could haf died due to breathing difficulties while laughing. hahaha, a teacher was there with his wife and he looked sooo... funny? interesting? well, in tt attire of his. but they are so sweet towards each other. ee.. haha. shortly later, i met xin and we had lotsa catching up to do. i love tt bestest pri sch fren of mine, haha, as usual, she was goin on and on and on bout her sch, sch mates, love, hong kong, etc..oh and again, i've concluded tt many many ppl go into a relationship to prove tt they are able to and well, to gain popularity, fame and crap, yup, it's total lame-ness, bull-crap and nothing but a piece of poo. we shopped quite abit and we had macs... yes, i've gained weight!! but i am currently, well, right now, on a strict diet. again... heh, talking bout strict diet, i shld say i am currently doing quite well! well, it's the 2nd day. hehe.

went to study with plankie and puff yesterday, clownie din feel tt there was any pt in studying, so she din join us. well, we weren't really studying, or rather they were trying many means and ways to tempt me to eat all the junkie and m and m, nice yummy choco, i really really love chocos... the choco jus melt in ur mouth and the aroma of hot coco powder will make u drool... yup... overall, yesterday was quite productive, i mean at the very least i managed to study quite a bit of physics. otherwise, i will be wasting the whole afternoon slping at home.

ciao... wanna go pack my luggage! i am leaving for indo on sat. yah!

chaseddd-ee

2004-10-28T22:47:00.000-07:00

birthday greetings
WOMAN!!!
HAPPY BLESSED 15TH BIRTHDAY! (:
-hope u like the cd frm carol and me. i am sure u do right? heh. it's really nice and pls listen to the lyrics k. btw, do we look alike? haha. ur the dark version and i am the fair version. but ur so slim and pretty.. i am the opposite. never the less, i am really flattered. haha (:

gonna go sentosa with the moo and dearie. i haf a sudden craving for kfc tom yum chickens (: it's definately finger-licking gd, heh, i guess so. we're gonnaa slack, sun tan, visit the gym, and eatttt..!!! yah, i simply luv food. thankew joyfool's mommy! (: mom was really sweet, she volunteered to send me home frm sentosa, tt's really nice of her. i luv my mom (:

tmr is oficially the last day of sch, but unfortunately, poor tkg sec3s are still required to attend sch, proper lessons--extended studies for an additional week. yeap. if only we get to wake up late, lets say about 9am. yup, i will gladly and joyfully attend sch, but i still luv sch! sch simply rocks my socks.! -_- haha, thanx to cow, i was late for sch for the 2nd time. if given a choice, i would prefer studying abroad, i shall take up a course on -wad it takes to be a farm tai tai. yup. heh.

3-7

2004-10-24T22:53:00.000-07:00

hyped
bbq in the morn?. yeap. haha. clownie invited the 3(plankie, puffer and me) of us to go for her cg's bbq at 10am. it shld be fun, well, hanging out with the 3nutshell is always interesting, many dumb, spastic things happen. it makes the world go round. it makes me laugh.

was dozing off during baptism and sss lesson. and tt's really bad. i mean i am there to learn God's word! i slept really late on sat. in the future i will try not to. anyway, i was behaving like a brat on sat. heh. well, reason simply being i was really happy for sm1. mich came to bfec today. really glad to see her (: she said i look wierd with my huge pink stud. but i like it. heh. the lil children in kss are simply so adorable. they make me forget bout evry unhappy things. they laugh at almost evrything and anything. i wanna haf many kids when i grow up! i am gonna be a sow. i guess i am too ambitious. my bestest dearest fren was in a bad mood, she was pmsing cos she woke up on the wrong side of bed. this is for u, hey! i can be ur punching bag so jus relax and take things easy k. u dun look nice when ur angry! haha. cheer up (:

we celebrated grand dad's b-day today. he's 84 and is still going strong (: thank God! God has been gd. He has bless this family greatly. had lotsa yummy food. the b-day cake was huge. i certainly hope grand dad enjoyed himself. i haven't been spending enuff time with my grandparents. i still remember the time grandma was admitted to the hospital, i was devastated, it was painful seeing her suffer, and it really shattered my heart into a thousand pieces, but the thing is we grew much closer, (: i simply enjoyed talking to my eldest sis and her bout my big plans, eldest sis and i would tease each other and tt will always put a big smile on grandmama's face. haha.

i slept like a log, can't believe i slept for 4.5 hrs in the afternoon, and i still feel sleepy. wad in the world has happened to me? i guess i need more beauty slp, so gdnight! (:

-ed

2004-10-23T02:56:00.000-07:00

herdesires
i wanna sing! but i can't... i can croak tho. here i go...croaking away while i listen to `he knows my hear-parousia. i dunno how and why i ended up in the church choir. i dunno why i am made to sing in last yrs' carolling, this yr's boxing day... i seriously can't singgg! but Lord... wateva pathetic voice i haf, pls use it for the extension of ur kingdom, pls hold me close in ur arms and never let me gooo... i want to remain by ur side, i want to hear u call me 'my beloved child.' oh God.. i love u...hm..4yrs ago, my besty fren, steph tan, said tt my singing is like my talking.. haha. up till now, she still says tt. joce's singing=joce's talking. i can only laugh out loud and say, yup, man... ur so right, i totally agree with u. (:

exams. i got 3pathetic As. and nothing more... thank God i dun haf to count any science for L1R5. phew. i heave a deep sigh of relief. otherwise, my L1R5 will be way above 20pts. tt's really bad. dad was unhappy, upset and angry. i was hurt, despondent, loss for words, i really felt like poo... not mainly cos of bad results, (i mean i personally feel tt it's the end results tt matters, and tt's the Os, not some stupid sch eoys...i haf to change tt opinion!) but cos of dad. dad has every rights to scold me. well, he did, and i cried. i hate to see the sad, disappointed look. i hate to see the pain, the anguish on his face. dad, i am sry. why do u haf such high expectations for me as compared to sis? why do u haf to compare my grades with urs? dun u know syllabus have changed? yes, i can't help but admit and acknowledge tt ur right. i din try my best, i should and could have done alot alot better... if only dad...after tt 'make ur daughter feel like poo' talk frm u, i can't help but feel dumb. so wad if i am above the cohort's average? it doesn't make much diff.. ur still unhappy... but NO... i won't lose hope, i will prove to the world, to u dad that i can get my desired 4A1s and more. i will study hard, give my best shot and run this long, tiring, tedious race, not on my own, but with Jesus, hand in hand. mark my words... i believe in myself. dad, will u believe in me?

slack.hols.shopping.more shopping.camps.movies.vcds.sentosa.indo.thailand.new zealand(?)slpovers.more slpovers.beach.jogs.choir.extended studies.tuitons.mug.and many more to come...
i can't help but not feel excited. perhaps at this very moment, i am just too numb to even feel a thing or two. but no, this enthusiasm will be back after my beauty slp.and then i will be hyper and yak, yak yak.

sm1 really close to me is infatuated with a guy. a guy whom she has not seen for yrs.. haha, tt's really interesting. haha. hm.. so is tt infatuation or love? wad's the definition of love? why's love always something so close to a girl's heart? but to a guy, love doesn't mean a thing or 2.. actually tt's not very right to say, very sadly, for my generation, most youngster treat love so lightly. some girls choose to 'love' to feel tt they belong, some guys want a girlfren jus because they think 'oh, i am a man, i need a gf! and becos my fren has 1.' but tt's so dumb...oh nvm... btw, will u still give ur heart away to a guy who has broken it several times? is that worth it?

lack of beautyslp

HeKnowsMyHeart--Parousia*

I should have stayed in bed today

The way things have gone

I just can't say

Step by step, I seem to stray

Further and further, frm the way

And though i see things going wrong

To change myself

I am not strong

Assurance comes from comforting words

But lost is the cause and i am hurt

Struggle I must and struggle I may

But works are not by what i am saved

For He knows my heart

He knows what I long to be

Snd just as long as I trust in Him

I will be free

Life can be so cruel sometimes

Just when you think that things are fine

So hypocritical am I

My sin has sentenced me to die

Away in shame, I turn my face

Yet He surrounds me in His grace

For He knows my heart

He knows what I long to be

And just as long as I trust in Him

I will be free

2004-10-19T17:37:00.000-07:00

haf u ever?
jus woke up.
some stranger called and asked for steven (who in the world is he...?)
do i sound like a steven?
though i am close to baldness
(jus had a super layered haircut :/)
i am still a fine lass.
well, very unfortunately, he woke me up.
all the beauty slp and my many 'fat u, sugary, choco coated u' dreams...
lets get down to business
i needa exercise!
i shall go for a long jog.
i feel real fat.
no words can describe how pig-gified i am.
hm..
it doesn't make much sense.
i shall say gdbye,
and go for my jog.
i'll be back!

*poof.

2004-10-18T10:27:00.000-07:00

it's 1003
that's considered really early to lazy bum, slacker me.
slept at 0830pm, woke up at 0930am.
yes. my 13hrs slumber is good,
i dreamt of u,
fat u, sugary u, choco coated u.
yum yum yum...
and then...
i woke up.

i can't wait for the 6th.nov,
i will be off with my frens,
flying really high up in the sky.
in a brand new city,brand new town
with no one bugging me bout stupid-fied sch

i can't wait for the 26th.nov,
i will be away once more,
luv the tom yum yumm soup and the many pretty clothes
in 4days or so,
i'll be back...and life goes back to normal

or maybe not..
this is not confirmed,
but i certainly hope to go,
i wanna milk the cows and go moo moo with them,
i wanna learn horse riding and catch the many stars tt twinkle.
i wishhh....

*for my future farm

2004-10-16T22:45:00.000-07:00

the girl is back again.
she is sad for no particular reason.
she wants to fly high.
she's talking to funny guy no.1 .
she laugh.
she thinks he is interesting.
she beams.

`she's off for her daily 12hrs slp.
right...

2004-08-28T18:36:00.000-07:00

i am trying

had a really long talk with mrs ho yesterday. she's a really sweet person (: thank God for her. she made me staighten my thoughts. i guess now i know wad i want and am going to do. about my studies. whenever i study, yea, i 've already started! heh (: (i feel a teeny wheeny sense of achievement (: ) i shall be constantly reminded tt "wateva u do, work at it with all ur heart, as working for the Lord, not for men." Colossians3:23 yup, tt indeed is so true, cos we are honouring and worshiping God in this way: studying.

studied with jo for the past 2days. we did quite alot. thankew jo (: oh, the food tt her maid prepared was wonderful. tasted so gd. i am craving for yesterday's dinner... yummy yum yum. the deep fried mouth-watering golden chicken wings, steaming hot corn soup, soft stir-fried toufu with onions and red-hot chilli, long luscious bean spourts with salty cuttle fish, super emerald green xiao bai cai and not forgetting the heavenly, savoury rich milk chocos.tt tasted so gd (: her sis wore a really cute 101 dalmation pyjamas yesterday. she looked so so cute. when i haf kids, i am gonna buy them lotsa tt. haha. can't imagine how i am able to slp for bout an hr at her place. gee.. well, tt's me. anyway, i guess i needed tt slp. had a rather late night yesterday. woke up so super early for cl listening compre and cl oral. as usual, the crapper was crapping in broken cl to the examiner. i had to ask her whether she understood evry word i was saying. and phew.. sigh of relief. she did! praise the Lord (:

oh. saw him today. asked him whether he was free tonight. and he said he was. told him to go for frankeltino. he asked where. din know how to describe. waved my hands rather frantically in some direction. he asked where once more. dunno. suggested he brings his frens along. he replied,' isn't it abit too late?'. i pondered, looked at my watch and said no. waved gdbye.

gonna go for dinner later to celebrate the king's birthday (: and the king is none other than my daddy. he's so cute and charming. my daddy! haha. shared with my 2sis to get him a wallet. his wallet looks worn out. hope he uses it. it's so manly (: my daddy is cool and smart. tt's where we got the genes frm. haha. when i say we, i actually meant my sis. yea. heh. love u my daddy!

mich's baptism tmr. YAH! am so excited and elated! gonna go to river of life with dearie tmr. if we can't get a flower and her baptism prezzie on time, i am sry mich, i am gonna pluck a flower and keep it alive by wrapping it with aluminium foil and wet cotton wool. heh. will tt do? haha. thankew God for this dear fren of mine. though sometimes she can be a pain in the neck, we still love her. aw... mich, how touching eh?! haha.

ciao.. show time

choco candies.yummy

2004-08-26T23:48:00.000-07:00

slacker

chao mugger, i am not. saddening isn't? ibut i want to be. i think geeks are cool. (: heh. i shall be geeky joce. haha. if only... and then i can do well, and make my parents proud (: but, they are still proud of me and love me unceasingly. heh. and tt's the same way God loves us too. he doesn't care about our pathetic grades or times when we think we love stupid or retarded, He loves us fervently and w/o fail (:

slacker me went out almost evryday. bad. ate like a glutton and growing sideways each day. badx2. but smt u jus need a break frm all the hassle and bustle. BUT i haf decided to start mugging soon (hm... when the hols are here) and when i mug, i shall put my heart and soul into it. with God around, evrything's possible and i'll find joy in studying. tho smt i jus want to simply run and run away frm all the many CAs.

the stepford wives was somewat interesting. watched it with chrest, shi han and su yan. can't believed i actually screamed when no one else did. tho not much screaming was needed. heh. as usual, the spastic me embarrassed myself. yet again. heh. it was fun hanging out with them. they are a sweetie bunch of ppl. (:

ian said 'no bf ar... aw... poor jocelyn' haha. hm. is a bf tt important? do i really need one? can i afford to haf someone saying sweet nothings at me all day long? i can't imagine life with a bf. i can't imagine kissing a guy and saying i love u to some stranger. and if i ever like a guy, i pray tt God will let my prince charming be the one and only guy i'll ever kiss, my first and the last. guess it's hard when u've been hurt before. but God is gd (:

another person has been added to the list, 'jocelyn, ur really very slack now'...tt's my cue for time to go.

ciao

i want to be a mugger

2004-08-23T20:50:00.000-07:00

sigh of relief

'thankew for telling me..' hah. phew... thank God. almost died this afternoon, and i thot lunch at seoul garden was gonna be my last meal. heh. but to my relief, things went on surprisingly smoothly and meeting m.hamidah wasn't as frightening as i expected her to be. thankew von for being there. i really appreciate it (: can't believe m.ho actually complained bout me. wad's wrong with being inquisitive? can't i clear all my doubts? isn't tt wad teachers are for? to clear ur students doubts. tsk tsk. heh. i am in a gd mood, i shall stop bitching. anyway, i acknowledge the fact tt m.ho is a gd, experienced teacher. well, she's (: gd for u m.ho. very gd.

lunched with 3nice ppl. noel, gay and my sis. gay was nice enuff to buy me dove chocos and biscuits (: thankew. heh. i luv milk choco. and i concluded lunch at seoul isn't filling, it requires quite a bit of exercise. u see.. some hand/finger movement are involved. rather tiring in fact. heh, i am such a lazy pig. anyway, thank God for ppl who are actually willing to serve u in their own accord. and they actually come up with new recipes to enhance the taste of the existing food. lime with beef. hm.. tasted quite nice. heh. and oh, ate quite a bit of mushroom. nice! yumyum! we played the number game and i lost 2rounds. penalty=more food. i am gaining so much weight. a need to exericse.

oh. and i met him while on my way home. hah. interesting. his eyes were red. poor boy. he has jus ended training. water polo. he has changed so much. frm a tiny little pri sch kid who used to bully me as far as i can remember to a mature (?) sec3 boy, who seems so mild-mannered. heh. we talked bout the old times. very briefly in fact. if given a chance, i would haf invited him to my church this sat. there's a band coming! woohoo. frankeltino totally rocks (: anyone interested? it's free of charge. jus let me know k. btw, i've got a new hp no. so dun call my confiscated number. it's with m.kong.

fartyhead! thankew. ur a sweetie pie. i shall give u some milk choco tmr. i haf plenty (: and wad's with the businesslady and lalala? btw, i've changed it k. thanx anyway, ur a dear (:

be good, be rebellious. ur choice

2004-08-21T23:44:00.000-07:00

replies:

michelle: hey, thanx. i am not worried bout the phone. jus tt i hate disappointing ppl. well, i am not perfect and tt's life. heh.

pig: heh. glad u had lotsa fun. yup, obviously u luv me! (: otherwise u haf no one else to luv xept for me! hah. anyway, skip band prac!!! please... i can't go with the guys alone... gonna be so embarrassing.....

baya: yea. he's HOT! but only with his cap on. heh. wad's more, he has 7 medals! and he's only 19! haha

nd: hm.. decided to give them pet names. was in the mood to do so. heh, well, li jia wei is out... or rather competing for the 3rd and 4th placing. but she played well.

plankie: no, wasn't calling u tt. was replying another msg.

nia: haha. yup, we all know tt. and tt taufik indo player is cute. hah.

2004-08-21T09:41:00.000-07:00

jocelynnn!!!

here's your new layout.

haha aint it nice?
i think it is.
ohwels cos i made it. -ego swelling.

alright. i'll have to find a place for your tagboard.
someday.
i will

anyhow if there's anyth you find that's not nice.
tell me.
yeapp.

bless,
fartheaddd.

2004-08-19T17:47:00.000-07:00

me: a great disappointment

okie. today hasn't been a great day. who's to blame? me. my phone got confistcated, not tt i actually bother bout the phone. it's only a phone, wad's the big deal. besides, it's an old phone. it was the words tt my teacher said which really made me feel so deeply ashamed of myself, i felt like burying myself under my blankie. ''of all the ppl, i can't believe u actually used ur phone'' the words stung. i hate it when i disappoint ppl, ppl who actually set such high expectations on me. but i am sry, i am not perfect.

i make many mistakes, i use my handphone evryday during any other teacher's lesson, i get caught for stupid reasons like too many ear holes, bla bla. and today, i finally got caught for using my hp. was still anticipating whether this day will come. hah, it's finally here. 2weeks w/o my phone, no big deal. no one can contact me. i shall live in a world of my own.

do i portray myself as some good lil girl? do u judge me by my grades? izzit becos i am ur rep or the fact tt i take up some leadership position in sch? if u do tt, u've failed as a teacher, no matter how well u teach, how professional u are, ur jus screwed. extremely dislike it when teachers have the misconception tt good girls=good grades. dun judge me by wateva grades i get, dun.. i hope u aren't tt sort, cos i haf lotsa respect for u. u can confiscate my phone for as long as u like, it's no big deal. i jus want to let u know tt i am so sincerely sry for being a lousy student.

i am so tired...

soul searching

2004-08-18T21:22:00.000-07:00

heartbreaker
ronny susiloooo has losttt!!! 1st game, 10/15, 2nd game, 01/15.and i am so devastated.. he was our only hope, our dream, our fantasy. but he'll alwayz be my hero, our hero. the guy who nearly, so closely made history. the guy who looks cool when he doesn't smile. the li jia wei's guy. i am gonna mourn for him and wear black evryday. heh. wateva is the case, he's still the bestest badminton player i haf ever seen, foreva and will be (: u go ronny!!

a consolation: the thai guy boonsak happens to be cute and he's only 22! an aspiring lawyer to be. (: haha. yes, u played well, u won 3 straight games and i wish u the very best, i hope u win and do ur country proud. heh. cutie bonnie. hahha

gary tan was swimming. initially he was fast, and then he lost form and he came in 7th out of 8. sigh. but who cares at least he beat some guy from some country (: gary's cute. almost all the swimmers are cute, especially peter patter bad boy, whose real name is pieter van dee hoogenband. heh. i acually remembered. hah. mikey phelps and ianny thorpe are still the ultimate best! (: and i dunno if this is a compliment or an insult to ian thorpe, he looks like clay aiken frm certain angle. heh.

i am devastated.

2004-08-17T17:59:00.000-07:00

eyecandy
okie, this was wat i wrote yesterday: (apparently, the post got lost, heh)
michael phelps is hot! he has a nice, hot bod, with his toned and trim 6 or more packs! heh, i know i sound like a despo, but i bet all girls will drool when they see him. oh my goodness! he's so cute! he's even cuter than ian thorpe, heh. ian thorpe was my once upon a time 'crush'. but now it's the dashing, well-formed, gorgeous, good-looking, lovely, mesmerzing, appealing, charming, athletic, pulchritudinous, hunky MICHAEL PHELPS! woohoohoo (: heehee.woah..

gonna watch the hunky MICHAEL PHELPS and once upon a time 'minor crush' ian thorpe in action! talking to the pig now. she thinks ronald susilo is cute. i think he's not bad when he doesnn't talk and smile. heehee, but when he plays, he's cool! he beat top seeded no. 1 lin dan. woohoo! (:sadly, all the gd, or rather those who excel in their various sports, athletes are imported? hm... well, ciao... gonna brush my teeth and soon... i will be drooling and ogling at MICHAEL PHELPS! heh (:

ur smile brightens up my life

today:

ronald.s is super duper gd! pig, and my many other frens and i haf concluded tt ronald.s looks cute when he doesn't smile, open his mouth and talk. heh, other than tt, he's the ultimate bestest badminton player i haf ever seen, (well, not tt i haf seen and watched lotsa match, heh). he's gd huh? heh. watched his match against this german guy. yah! now he's entered the semi-finals! 3 cheers for him! the 1st game was pretty close, my heart was beating so rapidly, i was so afraid tt he will lose and then there goes sing's only hope of a medal. well, the doubles table tennis women pair is out. so sad.but they did their very best, 3cheers for them (:

hm.. as i cheer for mr great ronny susilo, i mus say i felt a sense of belonging to sing, after all, he's a fellow sing. how patriotic of me?! heh. oh, i think ronny.s is a catholic, yah! gd for him, at the very least he has a relationship with Jesus (: he did the hand thingy after he won the match, dunno wad tt thingy is called. heh. i mean, tt was rather sweet, at least he acknowledges God's presence. How many of us actually thank God for wateva gd things He has so faithfully done? Let us alwayz remember tt ALL GOOD things come frm our Lord.

anyway, after staying up and sacrificing my beauty slp to watch the men's 200m freestyle finals. i haf learnt many important lessons. heh, actually, looks can be rather deceving. heh. well, michael phelps looks like a lil boy, he's not tt charming after all. haha, well, he looks gd with his swimming cap and in the water, but w/o tt and when his hair is dry, he looks like a lil boy! all tt raving and fanatical talks bout him turned out rather hm.. amusing. well, my frens and i had a gd luff bout him. heh, anyway, he's still wonderfully gd tho he lost to ianny thrope and pitter patter bad boy. heh. pardon me for their names, i can't remember the netherlandic silver medallist name. heh, well, anyway, he's also very cute. haha. although he's old, he looks like a bad boy biker, with his heavily tattooed arms, he'll come sweeping away all the lady's breath. haha. crapping as usual.

all the drooling and ogling

.eyecandy

2004-08-15T19:04:00.000-07:00

okie, let me correct myself in my thurs, aug14 entry. i do not find pure joy in watching sing idol. yes, it's funny, it's hilarious but it's jus makes me happy. the diff between joy and happiness is: joy is being happpy and contented in wateva circumstances BECAUSE WE HAF GOD, and happiness is jus simply being happy cos of the circumstance. well, tt's wad i learnt in sss lesson today, i hope i haf pharsed and remembered wadeva a.mona was teaching correctly.

sry yet once again for hurting those person who are so dear to me. it's my heck care, indifferent attitude tt has caused me the price to pay. it's hard being myself when u dunno wad is installed for me. well... i am sry God for not honouring u, i try Lord, i have tried, and will continue trying. i want to have all the elements of love. i want to be ur precious child and i dun want u to be ashamed of me. no matter how hard i try, i won't give up. cos i am living for u.

anyway, thanx simin for this layout, it's so sweet of u. (: thanx so much. and i shall proudly and so gladly say simin is a nice and wonderful girl. she likes hearing these words. haha. oh, michael smt frm the USA is so cute. he broke the world record in swimming!!! woohoo, he's cute, and he's only 19! heh.

a longing to change for YOU

2004-08-14T23:11:00.000-07:00

so much mixed feelings

had cross country today and the zany parade. the sec3 theme was sterotype, hence, my class did posers, ah lians, i think. well, white top, short skirt, black tie, long socks, big earrings. yup.. eee... well, plankie and many others said tt i really, seriously looked like one. hm.. dunno whether tt was a compliment or an insult. haha. yea! my class won 1st for many many events. jo.w is super! she is top for uncountable events. (: we had class spirit, isn't tt great? wonderful? teeheehee. anyway, puffer and clownie were great! they ran, ran and ran! they haf such great stamina! man... i dun haf such great determination to complete 3km. heh. yea, i know, lazy me.

well..after tt, went out with dearie, chrest and yx. we took a cab down, when i saw a cab, i ran towards it, some sec2s were 'fightin' for the cab too, but being a senior, i guess i had the upper hand, nah, i am typing rubbish. heh, well, i am sry to the sec2s, i needed the cab urgently, i needed to EAT!!! haha, sry. well, during the cab ride, being the usual spastic me, i embarrassed myself, well, tt's wad they said. haha, well, basically, i was talking to the cab uncle, asking him bout whether he knows how to tie a tie, the jazz song tt was currently on the radio, to drive carefully and last but not least, not to smoke, cos it sucks and it's bad!!! yup, they found it rather funny and started luffing and luffing, well, they dun seem to be able to stop. oh, and i did more stupid things. heh. dearie and me walked into the gentsssss.... eee.... so stupid!!! well, stupid things do happen in life. (:

met xin, and her cousin and then we went to a church to catch the spook show. the sermon was really gd!!! and many many ppl received christ. woohoohoo. and u know wad? we are all much more superior than dumb satan and his stupid evil spirits if we haf christ. they are all illusions hence fear not cos we haf JESUS! and he simply rocks, he's the most high, the light of the world! (: my God rocks my socks! shortly after the show ended, we went to crepes and cream. i ate coffee ice-cream, tasted so gd. i simply luv it. yup. popped a question to xin's cousin bout bgr. and she said now it's not the right time to be in a relationship. we may think this is the right person, but if it's the wrong time, he/she wll end up being the wrong person... well, while walking back, i was listening to the cd rain down on me by planet shakers. i pondered on many issues. guess it was great jus being alone. sometimes i need some time to sort out all my thots, jus me and my holy God. i guess i sorted my feelings hence i feel gd! heh.

haf been slacking the whole day, watching vcds, tv.. etc. i am such a lazy bum, i am sry, i can't help it. btw, i haf a sudden liking for fighting fish (: btw, i'm sry to whoever tt i haf hurt, be it subconciously, or purposely, i am so sry.

i dun need ur love....

2004-08-12T23:20:00.000-07:00

i wish for the simple things in life

i wanna watch sing idol, it makes me happy and tt's wad i consider pure joy. it's entertaining and interesting. the lemon tree guy doing an 'imitation' of william hung was engaging. and the china guy, rocky, was kinda pitiful. yes, he's able to sing opera or watsoeva, but so wad? s'pore is pathetic, it's way too small to nurture any great, gd wannabes. fly to america and i am sure u'll make it big, at least bigger than s'pore. reason simply being america is a land of oppourtunites.. look at william hung, his singing is worse than mine (mine really sucks. heh), yet he's able to produce his cd. if u wanna make it big in s'pore, jus produce more certs, and yea, u haf a place here and ur able to survive in a land so small. my deepest congrates to whoever who has acheived tt. u haf accomplished so much yet is that really the true meaning of living?

are u living for ur grades, for the sake of ur parents? simply because they want u to excel? jus so for ur so called secured future? if ur living for tt, u simply/absolutely haf no life! many ppl dunno why they are created, they are uncertain wat in the world they are living for. but i can very proudly declare tt i am living for God, for no one, not to get married and haf many kids ( heh(: if God allows, so be it. i sincerely hope so. heh), not for my grades, jus for my God. he has so wonderfully and fearfully made me, in his very own image. and let me tell u this, he has crafted u in his image too. he knows wat ur thinking, evry thot, evry word tt ur gonna say right now. he knows evrything. well, he's a gd and ever present God (:

anyway, coming back to the topic bout sing, i haf so much yet so little time to type out my thots and feelings. i do not like the education system in s'pore. evryone's so competative and kia-su. for goodness sake, can't we approach things at a slower pace? evrything's changing too quickly, too rapidly jus becos s'pore wants us to be better than the rest. wad's the point? it's dumb and a waste of time and money. no use building some art sch (though i badly want to join) as lizzy has mentioned. s'pore, once again is too small. in the long run, s'pore is jus wasting her money.

okie...i am done bitching (?!) bout sing. shall once again conclude tt, i shall go be a tai tai in aus and lead a carefree life in aussie. (: isn't aus much more exciting as compared to s'pore? heh, dun u agree with me?

pining for you, will u heal my broken heart?

2004-08-09T13:56:00.000-07:00

"can u say u truely understand me? do u know me? sch sucks. i feel like some stupid, pathetic deprived kid who jus wants total freedom. yes, TOTAL FREEDOM! i feel like a bird who is stuck in a cage with my wings clipped on the bars. i feel high. i hate my life. i need drugs. i need a puff to perhaps mantain my high-ness. i haf mixed feelings. i am unsure, uncertain, so confused. i am drowning, lost, sinking into depression...blablabla..."

some1 lost in her/his own world

he/she needs christ in her life.

i am not the he/she who is lost in his/her own world. and i already haf christ in my life. wat

more can i ask for? no, i dun need drugs, i dun need to take a puff. it's stupid, it's dumb. can't we jus treasure our lives? no, drugs can't make us high. it's the way we want to look at things. we can look/feel gd in wateva way we want. we can stop wallowing in self-pity, and for gdness sake get on with life.. bleahx. tho smt i wonder wat i haf done to land myself in this era, high technology, kiasu-ism, so many competative ppl who jus doesn't give a damn bout one's rice bowl, can't we go back to a time where simplicity is the one thing tt we all yearn for?

hence, u guys shld watch the village. heh. and no.. i wasn't planning to publicise the village..

and IAN!! i miss u sooo much.....

i am hungry, i shall go haf some food.

oh...happy nat day... sing...

-bored_

i want to fall aslp in ur arms

2004-08-07T17:50:00.000-07:00

let the bad colour not be seen.

it attracts them.

never enter the woods.

that is where they wait.

heed the warning bell.

for they are coming.

presenting to u THE VILLAGE from the writer and director of 'the sixth sense' and 'sign'. *drum rolls* this is a gd movie and i shall rate it 4/5. (: almost killed xin for wanting to watch this movie. cos whenever i attempt to watch suspense/scary movie, i will end up listening to my discman and will try to fall a slp. heh, movies" style="BORDER-BOTTOM: green solid; TEXT-DECORATION: none" href="http://search.targetwords.com/u.search?x=59771moviesAA1VDw">movies like red dragon, and others. i jus dun like them, they are bloody and are provoking to a weak heart like mine. heh. anyway, this time, i half freaked out, half enjoyed the movie. and the guy is charming in his quiet way. well, anyway, i shall and may take up sociology in uni if i ever get in. wanna learn ppl's culture. shld be quite interesting. (: oh, i may take up political science too and be a diplomate. heh. coming back to the village, i dun regret watching it. so ppl, go catch the village, it's gd (: anyway, tt was how i spent yesterday's afternoon with xin. luv this besty babe of mine. (:

today, i watched house of the flying daggers. note: i only watch chinese movies during chinese new year, it's a tradition. well, anyway, there are a few reasons why i watch movies.

1) hot, cute, guys! heh.

2) romance, animated

3) a gd plot

4)when i am bored and i really, utterly haf nothing to do

anyway, flying daggers falls under the catogory (1). hehe. cos of takeshi kaneshiro! (: he's so darn cute. my goodness! and zhang ziyi is so pretty. and she can act really well as a blind. down with andy lau. he's old and dying, and he has so many wrinkles. yikes... andand he made the ending bad. heh. and i was on the verge of crying. hahah. no la. i shall rate it 3/5. yea. anyway, everything was paid for. heh. food, movie, etc. hahah. i haf a nice, big, cool and wonderful fren :)

PS: my eldest sis is whining! yikes... i can't take it. someone pls save me! hahah. oh, when i grow up, i wanna be a rocker's girl or a biker's girl! heh.

still mesmerized by ur touch

2004-08-04T22:38:00.000-07:00

boodoohooroo

heh.feeling gd.so gd (: gonna rock this town alive in a couple of days (: gonna go out with besty xin!miss her,luv her!

and i may be slping over in plankie's hse.yah!we shall take lotsa photos.haf i mentioned i love

taking photos?heh.it's basically a girl thing.or rather it's a pig/me thingy.reflections piggy!

hehehe -retarded grin-

my ever beloved grandma is getting better each day.thankew for those who prayed and asked.ur concern is so greatly appreciated. (:

i look spastic in my class photo.shall not elaborate how spastic i look.heh.but pig,i bet i look better than u in ur class photo.haha.

anyway,m.hassan was so very hilarious.she is alwayz funny.her son is so adorable.he wants to be a baker,fisherman,etc..so cute.heh.

i wanna get a tattoo.give me bout 1yr and we shall see a tattoo.noo..i shall find out wad the legal age is first.dun wanna get slaughtered by my elder sis.

i am craving for gelare coffee/mocha/ ice cream,nacho chips with salsa sauce.yummy yummy!hungry,pig,glutton!i am all tt i've mentioned.heh

i am dying to watch the notebook,either with clownie or with my sis.love is a blissful thing.wad will u do if u dun haf luv?this world will be a heartless one.it's already is,but it'll be worse.the thot of it is dreadful.well.thank God for love.

-it's not about keeping a promise,

it's about following ur heart!-

i wanna see the stars.the ever so bright glistening stars tt gleam like never tmr.the stars...they haf no worries. wanna be like them,so carefree.if i have one dream,i wanna be all tt u ever wanted,the girl tt u love,no,tt sounds cheesey,i wuld rather be a star tt shines so radiantly.cool eh?heh

ur image is still scarred in my heart.i am still captivated

2004-07-31T00:03:00.000-07:00

Lordblessthisfamily

yes Lord,bless this family.Thankew God for blessing us so greatly and pls continue showering us with ur grace and blessing.my family need it Lord.my family need u.we need u so so badly.we need u to fill our broken hearts.we need u to guide us thru this difficult time.

and thankew so much for preserving my grandma.thankew for ur grace tt pulled her thru the op.thankew for ur comfort and grace.thankew Lord for lessening her pain.thankew Lord tt the 3rd generation can use this opportunity to share christ with all of them,evryone of them Lord.ur a great God and i am drown in ur love,in u Lord.i need u so badly.

this week has been such an eventful one.my greatest,sweetest grandma was admitted to the hospital cos of a malignant tumor...down with the tumor.down with cancer...i hate it,i hate to know tt my grandma has to suffer.i hate to know tt she has to go thru so much...and i jus feel so helpless....but dear great grandma is alright now (: yah!soon she'll be up and about!double YAHness!i love u my greatest,most wonderful God and grandma!

lao da and lao da jie are gone...sent them to the airport yesterday.my eldest cousins are gone.but God has a plan for them and the plan is to send them there to do wateva God wants them to do.he has a plan for each and evryone of us.we jus haf to quieten our hearts and listen.so God pls pls pls continue blessing them.u luv them more than anyone luv them,so guide them,lead them,show them the path.thankew heavenly Father.

i am so tired,emotionally and physicially tired.haven't stuided for my 3important CAs but i can finally let out a sigh of relief.so much to thank God for.i jus simply love him and i hope evryone will do tt too.cos God never fails.HIs words are the only one anyone can depend on.He's our refuge.and i am jus so proud to say tt he's my,he's my refuge,my peace in time of difficultly,my hope.my love.

ciao...slp!i gotta slp!!my beauty slp!!!heh

2004-07-27T16:56:00.000-07:00

hehehe.
i feel like a little girl who has jus gotten her very 1st cone of choco ice-cream. (: God is so good, so so awesome. if u want to know how good God's, u gotta experience his wonderful love. (: He has bless me greatly and i simply love him to the core.

frankeltino was awesome, simply wonderful. and i thank God for ppl like audio xchange. thankew God tt they young vibrant ppl have the desire to serve and worship u. (: and there's one electric guitarist who's so cute... my sis' fren. he's soo cute and when he sang this love song, my heart totally melt. my goodness... his voice is sooo.. nice. heh.

okie, and on sunday, my class led worship. (: thank God for using little insignificant ppl like us to serve u. thank God for the musicians, for our wonderful teachers and last but not least, thank God tt quite a no. of ppl sang. U, our mighty God deserves all honour, all praise. and i will praise ur wonderful name, i will sing of ur great love. Lord, ur totally awesome and u rock!

2CAs have jus passed. thank God for these CAs, tt i'll be able to know how i fare, how i stand. Lord, if i ever do well for my physics and chemistry, its all ur work, it's ur grace tt pulled me thru. cos Lord, i did not study, i kept procrastinating... and so if i ever do badly, it's my fault. well, jus praise God for evry little thing. (:

celebration! i luv celebrations, i luv spending time with my relatives, i luv the fact tt i am the youngset in the whole entire paternal family. and i luv God cos He has given me an ultra wonderful family. i luv the fact tt my generation are all children of God. and i pray tt the rest of the family, and my dear grandparents will accept God as their personal saviour and Lord. we're gonna haf a 12 course dinner. catering food frm chilli padi. the food totally rocks and it's soo... fattening. soo.. being the fat me, i've decided to jog with my siblings and hopefully my cousin..

Ps: caroline's a clown!!!!!!!

okie, ciao... gdbyez

2004-07-22T22:35:00.000-07:00

back off u stupid desperate goon. get away frm me, i dun want to be anywhere near u. gah... (dearie, i am learning frm u. haha) anyway, jus back off will u, dun come anywhere near me. I DO NOT LIKE U! i am disgusted and very harrassed by ur stupid actions and ur ways. bleahx. so jus stay further away frm me, and we'll both be safe and sound.

i bite

2004-07-21T21:35:00.000-07:00

so..
why does 1 fall ill? yes, i am feeling so sick, yes, i'm running a rather high fever? i am so tired of slping late.. and i jus wish this will stop, evrything... this world is changing too quickly, too rapidly, wad in the world is happening? evryone is competing for the best, evryone wants to be the best. so wat if u aren't the best, the ultimate winner? will it kill? will u die? in this society, u eitiher be the best, or ur jus not as gd... but it doesn't mean ur a loser :( so can we all take things at a time and at a much slower pace? bleahx. yes, i am running away frm reality. i wanna run fast, very fast, where no one can find me, no one will ask me 'soo.. did u do well?' 'are u the best?!' 'how much did u get for this particular test?' i am sick and so very tired of all these questions.

if ur wondering, wad's wrong with me.. i can assure u tt nothing's wrong with, jus having a rather high fever. soo... i am venting my anger, letting go of my frustration. cos if i dun, i am gonna burst one day. i am gonna burst big big time. see my point? anyway, my parents aren't giving me any stress at all. thank God for them (:

thank God for frens too. hm.. one in particular, han si min! haha, sting ray! haha, thanx for cheering me up with ur 'i love sing' mood. haha, someone so so patriotic huh? and all ur mai--> yimam.. hahaha. it has really cheered me up. whether u did it subconsicously or wadsoeva, thankew (: told u simple acts by simple ppl can really cheer me up. heh. oh, simin wants me to say tt she's an incredibly nice person, and tt no one can match her. haha. yesyes, ur wonderfully nice. (:

okie, was supposed to go jogging with jo and nia today. but i couldn't... i was slping! down with my fever. haha. anyway, nia's cousin went... my goodness, i shld haf gone. haha, jus joking. well, but the slp was gd. i really needed it big time, otherwise... the consequences will be real bad.

gonna mug soon. see ya.

PS: thank God for frens. thank God for u. i love u my Lord (:

2004-07-20T23:15:00.000-07:00

play/concerts/gigs i wanna attend:

-eternity, the ultimate experience
(woohoo, dearie is an angel!! haha, she'll make a gd1, cos she is an angel by nature (:)
28o72o04, weds 0730

-frankeltino
(fellowship plus evangelistic (: it's somewat rock, i simply love rock!)
24o720o4, sat 0730

-private parts
(hahaha, hopefully no more sex scenes :l )
010820o4, sat.....

-jojo lim's and shi fu's gig
(they are gd, very good! duh!)
30o72o04, fri 073o (?)

2004-07-18T19:57:00.000-07:00

yummy-licious milk chocos and deep fried chicken wings with its many layers of oil really make me fat but they jus tastes so wonderfully gd.heehee.whereas dark chocos make me cringe.well,it doesn't,i jus do not haf a strong liking for it.
haf been eating alot.yoshi on weds, long john on thurs,sub way and chilli padi on fri,refrained frm eating on sat and last but not least,granny's oh-so-wonderfully delicious food today :) yummy.its no wonder ppl call me a pig,my grandpa thinks tt way too.he says i am foreva slping and eating and not mugging.BUT i do study,or rather i try to...i can study better at night.when night falls,grandpa is aslp,so he doesn't know...oh well.haha,anyway,jus woke up frm a 3hrs slp.slp,beauty slp is so important.i need more beauty slp!
bought a pencil case frm flash and splash (or the other way round).it's a pinkie ripcurl pencil case.i do not haf a strong liking for pink but somehow or another,evrything bout me is pink.sonia bought a hugh hugh black pencil case.it's 4times the size of mine.haha.well,i think a new pencil case will motivate me to study more.hm..guess so,i think nia thinks the same way too.took lotsa neos with nia,jo and zhaoey.i like the colourful ones best :) anyway,we walked frm cine--> heeren--> wisma--> paragon -->city link (we took the train) jus to look for tt pencil case.jo was supposed to buy too,but she ended up deciding not to.and jo has become my jogging partner.she lives so super duper near me.i can jog to her hse using the siglap park connector and then we can jog back to my place :) yah!this shld motivate me to jog.heehee
btw,rock totally rocks my socks.hoobastank,no doubt,red hot chilli peppers,u guys totally rock big time.
i needa eat now.i am gonna eat more chicken wings :) heh,no...i will and shall resist temptation.anyway,i needa mug.haven't practiced enough for maths e,and i can't fail.soo..gdbyez

ps:pig played the drums today.haha,u were gd piggy,tho u played for only one song.

2004-07-14T17:17:00.000-07:00

TIME-I NEED U
haven't been blogging...feeling rather lazy.well, anyway,here i am blogging.it's 0819,i am in sch.bored.
eng lessons=free periods.
ang is really nice,he's really a cool fat cute teddy bear (: haha.jus ate dark chocos,tasted horrible..no it doesn't..i dun fancy dark chocos,tt's why.zhaoey luvs dark chocos.i luv milk chocos,tasted so so good.ian's back and i am so glad.really miss him.i bet all of us do.in fact i miss loads of ppl,xin,steph tan,jas,tim.gay,mark.pretty boy,plankie,carol...so so many ppl.haven't been spending enuff time with all of them.there's so many things,so many stuffs to do.but there isn't enough time.i really miss the days where i can jus sit down and think hm..how am i going to plan my days?wad am i going to do?now tt's evrything has been perfectly planned for me, i feel rather trapped.haha, i dunno..feeling the thurs blues.is there such a thing?well,God knows.
gonna study with ida woman later.i've better study.well,i guess i am able to,woman can motivate me to do so.tt's gd huh?
gonna go orchard tmr with sonia,jo and lizz to do lit project.and then after tt,we can all go shopping.yah!-grins-i am rather deprived of shopping.i needa buy skirts and earrings :)

simple actions by simple ppl can certainly put a smile on my face.

2004-07-11T03:45:00.000-07:00

she sits by the window watching the cars go by,the ppl go by.she sits there by herself wondering wat in the world has gone wrong with her life.overnight,her life has come thumbling down, down down....there seems to be no other way and purpose to start anew,no one will ever want her, no one will ever say the 3words she often longed to hear:
i love you...

as she sits there alone,sucidal thoughts run thru her head.if i dash out of this cold place, i will get knocked down by a car...no regrets..no one will care, no one will bother...she thought,in a corner of her eye,she sees a couple holding hands, and looking at each other so intently.she turned away..she couldn't bear the sight of looking at them.it will only make her think of him....only bitter thoughts..her blood will boil...

in another corner of her eye,she sees little children at a field near the road laughing so happily and joyfully.there seem to be no bad day for little children.she recalled her childhood days.her father was a drug addict and drunkard,her mother was a prositute.they had to live in the shams.mother was oftenly beaten up by her drunkard father.as a young child,at a mere age of 4,she had to work...and when she was older, she tried running away from her family. but she couldn't bear the thought of her mother living with the drunkard. dad...

to be continued....

anyway,
strong>HAPPY BIRTHDAY mich!!!

2004-07-09T22:55:00.000-07:00

had eng oral today.the topics were kinda interesting(?),an example:talk about one concert which you attended and felt really bored...yea,and then i went on saying how boring the band concert(was talking bout tkss,but i din specify) is,bla bla,so crappy,i said we,or rather some are so obliged to going for some band concert because it's a requirement in the sch,we haf to show support,we haf to do this,we haf to do tt,and i added i am not musically inclined hence i did not enjoy it,blabla,went on elaborating bout mrs sin,and you know wad?the worse thing is she's a music teacher,who knows,she may be the band teacher,gee..actually teacher,whoever u are,i enjoy music but it certainly depends on wad kind it's.well,hopefully it will turn out alright.smt wishing for the impossible gives me a great sense of achievement..

PS:sry to any band members who're reading this.

anyway,my phone keeps sending some multi-media msg.for goodness sake,stop it.it's pissifying,and down right irritating.this is the 100time?!stop stop stop!and wad's more one mms costs 50cents.it's not cheap if u times it by wadeva times.bleahx.

met elisabeth,himbo and eugene jus now to study,can't say i did much studying,but it's still better than nothing..i really haf to study,9chaps of cl will kill me,i can't afford to fail and i definately won't allow myself to do so.miss terry makes a gd v.p,she was giving us a lecture on we haf better pull up our socks,blabla,it's a wake up call to many and certainly me,my goal for this term:L1R5 either remain at 12 or lower.*i haf to remember to do well,i haf to...*smt dwelling in my many dreams pull me thru each long and tiring day.

anyway had sinful food jus now,oh no,i am gonna gain more weight.haha,i was starving or rather i was greedy.food is smt which i really haf to overcome,i can't be tempted by food.fattening!haha.

gonna start on the ss script again...

2004-06-25T23:09:00.000-07:00

replies to the sweet ones:

carol--HEYZ!it was an ultra super duperly girly top k.haha.carol choongy's getting VAIN!!!haha,how's ur hair? do u like it?izzit as short as the previous previous one?the super short one?carol... i hope not.anyway,i am cutting my hair tmr.gonna cut super duper layered,with fringe and i shall leave a tail.heehee..can u imagine how i am going to look?haha.I AM BORED!and i am not mad..not yet.haha. :)

pig--haha,the description?was bored tt's why.haha,i was really mad tt day..haha,i acted all spastic.come to think of it,i had quite a gd experience too.haha.well,though we were all...so quiet and serene(?!) and refined(!?)...nah..haha,i was the only 1 yakking non-stop and the phone call part was pretty hilarious too. haha.

ida--heyz,i haf already re-linked u.know wad?i haf finally mastered the art of linking.haha.anyway,see ya around when sch reopens,when we haf peter tongy...BOO. ): haha,see ya IDA WOMAN.

dearie--JOYFOOL sweetie.haha,i miss u!!i miss u!!hahaha,and i jus saw u in the afternoon.haha,i sound like a les(?!) but i am CERTAINLY,DEFINATELY not one.yikes.anyway,see ya in sch.btw,thankew so much for accompanying me back to the tamp mrt.so ultra sweet of u.well,ur dear fren here has no sense of direction.so...THANKEW.haha.see ya (:

eugene--hmm..i dunno..well,i guess u act 3yrs younger than u are.haha.well,only when ur with the little children.hahaha.anyway,see ya tmr.DUN be late.gd night and go dream of *u know who* hahaha.

roxy--heyz!haha,yea,i consider 13and below little children,haha,hence ur one.ur 13,so vibrant,so innocent and so sweet.haha,unlike me,eugene and steph..the old and dying.nah...haha,well,anyway,see ya tmr.really glad ur rach is coming back to class.YAH!haha.see ya.

zhaoey--heyz,miss u too.haha,i really do.haha,miss the time when we stayed over at sonia's hse.tt was soo...funny and interesting.hahadun wry bout ur hair.u can grow it back someday,somehow..i am sure it'll.yup.haha,anyway,see ya when sch reopens.take care sweetie.haha

mich--Heyz!thanx for informing me bout the date.(: anyway,the food was gd.gosh...but it's fried,and it's sooooo...oily.haha,so ultra fattening.haha,anyway,see ya michhy mich.haha.know wad i feel hyper.haha.and i shall see u back in sch.btw,i think u've grown taller.haha.oh no...i am still as short.haha.take care (:

U S U C K!
satan or lucifer crap..U SUCK!!go eat ur satan's poo.or get a live.wad nonsense bout 666 or wadevar crap.give up will u?jus apologize to my almighty Jesus and die.yes,go die.jus banish frm the realms of the earth.i detest u big time.but,i know u won't apologize when u OUGHT to cos the bible says so,my Jesus has already won the battle.hence,u've LOST!!get it?ur plain stupid!
okie..jus visited this website tt my fren told me.. http://www.av1611.org/666/rock_666.html it's not shocking,i know how much the satan crap can do,i know he is powerful,BUT Jesus will alwayz be better than u in EVERY way,He's the ultimate best and i mean it.He is he was and he will be!

my thots and feelings:it's plain dumb.STUPIDity!

Lord Jesus..i love u and i thank u for everything thing tt u've done for me.i may haf a spiritual attack later..the satan crap may try to tempt me in every way he can find.i may fall into temptation,but i hope i won't...but wateva is the case,i haf faith in u Lord,i know u'll be here with me.u've neva left me,u won't,and u'll neva.ur alwayz here.i love u Jesus. (:

My faithful God
I see afresh this morning
The grave error of my question
"Don't You love me anymore?"
I ought alwayz to ask instead
"How can You love me so continually
With such immeasurable love?"

2004-06-23T09:14:00.000-07:00

O U C H
it's 1214,i ought to be aslp,ought to finish up all my DUMB homework which is suppose to benefit me(well..i guess they are indeed helpful),ought to do soso...many things,i haf only 5more days..5 short days..will somebody prolong this hols?will somebody put a stop to all the homeworks?dun the teachers haf a life?can't they spare a single thought to inncoent pitiful little children like us?we are jus 15!we ain't robots,give me a break will u?

yes,i am angry.yes,i am irritated and piss with myself.hence,i am venting my anger.i am sry..i can only blame myself,i can't blame the teachers,they are doing their job..i should be doing my job as a student and stop partying..i haf partied enuff this hols.i shld be doing my hw...someday,sometime sooner,i will...i promise. :)

okie,by hook or my crook,i will finish them.it's not an option,it's a M U S T.i can't fail any subs,gonna suck big time if i ever do.hence,Jesus pls let me find joy in studying and completing my hw.hw ain't everything,i T O T A L L Y agree.but,it's my respondsibilty and i dun want to disappoint my parents.so Lord,i trust in u,ur the most high,ur the greatest one,my hope is in u,love u to the ultimate fullest.thankew. (:

alwayz feel better after praying.Jesus is wonderful,he alwayz take my worries,my pain away.So thankful i haf u...

S E R V E Y O U R I G H T. HAHA
Anyway,today was another shopping day.shopped with carol for angie's prezzie and later with pig.ANGIE ANG YUN LIN!u've better like ur prezzie.heehee.well,i am sure u will.carol wore a rather girly top.haha.she's becoming vain.YAH!haha.after carol left,i met pig.and we shopped...and shopped...my legs were aching but it was super interesting seeing pig shop,she's as indecisive and as vain as i am.haha,and she's so..cheapo.super funny.(sry,pig.haha)well,AND we did some hw.woo hoo.haha.i dunno why...but i haf a teeny wheeny sense of satisfaction.yup...

later,we met pretty boy and nic later for dinner.haha,or rather we as in nic,pig and me were spying at pretty boy and his date.haha,well,it was all planned,but as pretty boy had said,if his date is gonna turn out to be some freak,he'll haf dinner with us..haha,anyway,his so called misson was unsuccessful and hilarious.
date:23rd june 2004
time:0730
venue:fish and co. (glass house)
haha..here goes..let me tell u the background,they met in taboo,if u dunno wat tt's,it's a gay pub.STUPIDity!!!yes,can't believe they actually haf a gay pub in sing.DUMB!anyway,i am gonna visit that place someday,wanna see the gays and if better,interview them.i believe no one is born gay,it's jus a dumb choice they've made in some stupid dumb point of their life.i do not look down on them but i dun support gays.it's a sin..Jesus loves the sinners,even so,if died for us on the cross,but he hates sin...i wanna live for Jesus so tt someone else might say tt too...anyway,coming back to pretty boy and his date.haha.okie..he gave his no. to his date and a gay,basically cos they were harrassing him.and tt was the turning point.haha,he was completely freaked out by the gay,but he arranged to meet the girl.BUT..sad to say,the girl din meet his high standards..okie,the girl wasn't pretty,but she wasn't ugly.to many,she may be hot..anyway,serve u right for giving ur no. to her.haha.he was totally freaked out by the girl.hahaha.after his date with her,he came over to our table after escorting/accompanying her to some place i.dunno..and we acted all spastic.or rather i was the only one.haha.started adding pepper to his drink and all..gosh,we were loud.haha.i was indeed mad.it was funny and we all had a gd laugh.haha.pretty boy even said tt the gay was better,the girl was much more of a freak,blabla.and he goes on and on bout how gross it was.hahaha,it was super duper hilarious.haha.

anyway,wanna go slp now.I AM TIRED!!!!

tmr:
-jie jie and the china misson ppl will be back.YAH,DOUBLE YAHS!haha.
-70yrs old aunt funeral.thank God she's saved!
-tuition frm 4.
-the O.c!

2004-06-18T22:00:00.000-07:00

i feel soo.. ultra clean, gd and fresh. heehee (:

today was an ultra long day..woke up at 6am ++ and my day begins...had tuition in the morning,it was pretty fun i guess.tho i kept falling aslp,well wat can u expect?i am a pig and it's soo..super duper early in the morning!!anyway,was laughing away with my cow sister.she was mooing while i was laughing.haha.totally love this cow of mine.haha

after tuition,it was bout 11plus..went to meet roxane, himbo, eugene, nat nat and samuel..(well,if u noticed,it's the little children xept for eugene.haha)i am dead tired..my legs are aching..anyway, we caught a movie and it was really funny,it wasn't too bad i guess..the little boys are really hilarious.haha,they are soo...inmature and childish. but totally adorable and cute. roxane told me it's proven tt guys act 3yrs younger,well,smt of tt sort.haha.amd i TOTALLY agree.they were fascinated bout some water fountain.haha.well,apparently,i was the only one shopping...i shopped and i shopped and i kept shopping...for girly/pinky stuff.yup..

came home bout o53o plus..eugene and himbo followed me home,they were suppose to follow me for this photo-shoot by teng ngan,apparently they din.well,thank God they din.haha,think i looked spastic.haha.anyway,teng ngan is really one nice guy.thankew.well,sry if i looked bad in the photos,well,i think i do,i am so sry..i tried my very best.haha,and now,my cheeks are numb frm smiling.haha.

anyway,gonna go ZOO tmw!!!yah,haha,i know i sound like a small kid who has jus gotten his/her very first lollipop,but yea..i am excited bout the zoo...haven't been there for an ultra long time.the animals are God's wonderful creation.praise the Lord. :)

replies:
eugene:
i know i know..u haf been saying how nice the board is and i totally agree.well,thankew so much k.haha
andy:
yea...i miss camp,i miss uncle lai yong..his sermons were so gd..thank God for camp
mich:
glad u had fun,i had fun too.haha,see ya back in sch,btw,when's our class party.i totally forgot bout it.heehee.

i miss my mom and dad,who are happily enjoying themselves in bang kok and italy.well,thank God for them and pls continue blessing and looking after them.Thankew!i miss jie jie,who's away in bei jing serving our Lord Jesus.God,keep the misson team safe and well,let them be dependant and alwayz trust in u Lord,the same applies for me too..well,jus bless them and grant them gd health.let all of them haf a safe journey back.THANKEW!love u wonderful God. (:

2004-06-15T02:25:00.000-07:00

yesterday:
1)cher's birthday 130604
my dear and gd fren has turned 15years old,God has certainly watched over this beautiful child of his.AND he will continue watching over his lovely child.she's one tt has annoyed and irritated me the most,but yet has deeply shown me wat God's love,wat having faith in God is all bout.she,my fren,though is only a mere 15 has a heart tt yearns for God even more than anyone of us.she is beautiful both inside out.her frenship is one tt i'll alwayz treasure...i love u my fren...
well,celebrated her birthday at sizzler.we took many many photos,or rather,the waiters and waitresses took many photos,but all of them turned out PATHETIC and blurry,anyway,it was a gd lunch,had lotsa food...i certainly hope she has enjoyed herself..sigh...PIG,i will miss her if anything is gonna happen or take place so quickly,it's too fast for me,i am slow,both mentally and physically,and i rather everything to take place slowly...everything's happening too fast,took quickly.can i choose not to believe it although i know it's gonna happen?is this called faith?help me...PRAY!!
2)pig and joan led worship for the 1st time.
it was gd..i dunno,i can't judge worship,God's the only one who can do so..well,but God has seen ur heart,no matter how lousy,or how bad the worship is,God looks at the heart.AND to me,u guys did a great job.tho there were some off-keys.haha..mark.pretty boy sang uber well.
3)slpover at angie's hse
after parting frm cher,pig and sis,boarded the train to meet plankie at aljunied mrt..thankew plank for waiting a whole 45mins for me.there was an emergency...heehee,anyway,met angie later,together,we boarded the mrt and headed to clark quay,riverside jumbo,woah..the food was gd,but unfortunately,i was too full,had too much for lunch.after having our dinner,we went straight to Plaza sing to catch shrek 2,unfortunately,it was full hse,hence,we watched the best bet,a sing production.hm..wasn't looking forward to it initially but it turned out rather alright,super funny and lame..hahaha.tho most of the times i din really understand wat they were babbering bout,most of the times,they were speaking in dialects..there were sub-titles tho..well,after the movie,went back to angie's hse,we wanted to watch the first two harry potter movies,sad to say half way thru the first movei,all of us concuss..and we fell into a deep long slp..

2004-06-13T01:26:00.000-07:00

okiez. back frm church camp.
IT WAS TOTALLY AWESOME. those who din go: too bad for u.haha.u missed a super gd speaker,and God was in our midst.
day 1:hm..we took a 1ohrs journey frm sing to kuantan.pathetic right?haha,well...but it was fun.God was in our midst.leading the bus uncle to the correct resort and all.hm..sat beside steph,we kept falling aslp.steph PIG,i miss u.haha.was talking to mark.pretty boy..or rather he was cracking lame jokes,we sang songs tt he was going to lead later on..it was gd.church camp theme song was gd,i think it really ministered to me.WHOLLY YOURS.totally meaningful.will post the lyrics sone day.when i reached the resort,it was already 6plus,time for dinner.(: well,dinner was soso..hm.eugene and himbo were bored,hence they bought her world magazine.haha,i haf it with me right now,well,they find it boring.too bad for them.oh let me mention this.it's so super ironic.haha,nic couldn't go,cos he has to attend some dumb con camp but his dear lovely acsi principal was busy enjoying himself in kuantan.haha

day 2:free and easy.uncle lai yong was speaking bout LOVE-WHY SO DIFFICULT?okiez,smt tt i've learnt.. In order to be fruitful, Psalms 1 tells us:1)Do not follow the way of sinners. 2)Delight in the law of the Lord. this applies not only to love but to everything tt we do. well,i think 1Thessalonians 3:12-13 sums it all.we played secret barnabas,it's some wat like angel and mortal,where u encourage ppl and get encouraged.was writing to samuel and elisabeth.haha.i definately hope both of them felt encouraged...well,had a fun time writing to them..my S.b is roxane.she's uber sweet.luv her envelopes and letters. thankew roxane (: in the afternoon,it was free and easy.we (eugene,himbo,nat nat,sam,june,cher sisters,ster,tim.gay,pig and me) went to the beach,played with the waves,jumping on it,etc..so FUN..after tt,pig and me went to the gym,whereas,some went to play tennis,and the others jus did their own stuff.after visiting the gym,pig and me went to haf a sun-tanning session,it was kinda pathetic,but HEY!at least we got a tan.both of us fell aslp while sun-tanning.hahaz.aunt S.g,bought dinner for us.it was not bad,well,but it wasn't enuff to fill 5 stomachs,hence,himbo,eugene,pig and me,ordered 2pizzas.yup,tasted pretty gd.we gave 2 slices to the little girls,the sec1s.haha.at night,steph and me had a rather long talk with elisabeth and roxane.hm..a more than 3hrs talk.haha.

day 3:uncle lai yong talked bout wandering off: why so easy?we did a drama thingy,we acted out Psalm 1o7.i think wat makes uncle lai yong a gd speaker is cos we,the youths are able to relate to his msgs,and they are interesting and all.his way of teaching is diff,and also,i guess it's partly cos he's a missonary,the accounts he told were all so..hmm..fascinating.yup..in the afternoon,we(as in the entire church camp) watched a movie.a cute little boy having cancer but was still optimistic.wad makes the diff?he's a christian and his mom played a very big role,she gave him hope.well,she trusted in Jesus.and tt played a very big part in the difference.went to the gym with pig.mark.pretty boy taught me some exercises.haha.he said i will lose 6kg within 3weeks.haha.at night,we played a game organized by the YAGgers.totally meaningful..bout prayer and all..after tt,had a chat with elisabeth and roxane.and off i went..TO SLP.my beauty slp.

day 4:hawaiian night.woohoo.haha.well,uncle lai yong started the day by talking bout feelings-why so like tt?yup..it was gd.and u know wad?i haven't fallen aslp for any of his msgs,well,so far..haha,anyway,the youth was divided into 2groups,dance catagory and song catagory.guess wad?was under dance.hahaha.can't dance for nuts,but...still had to do so.up to today,i still think we shld haf won.haha,coz,the other groups,the adult groups were too stiff.haha.anyway,bout our dance,it was hilarious.haha,the guys did some ultra gay movements,hahahaha.well,they were led by tim.gay tt's why.pig's mommy aunt S.g even commented tt himbo had a flair for it.it was natural for him.hahaha,himbo's ultra cute and funny.back to the dance,we sorta did a indian dance,well in a sense yes..the girls were trees,and sam had to chase after himbo,who was the girl.haha,chao funny.hahaha.couldn't stop laughing while on stage.to the other group led by ster,u guys sang ultra well (: though only a few were singing.haha.after tt,being the last night,we had a party,well,sorta,basically,a party with minimal food.during the party,left with tim.gay to talk to jojo lim,june was already there.had a rather nice talk with them.well,i was un-whining myself.thankew for listening.okiez,went back to ster's room at bout 2plus am,was talking till bout 0430,then i couldn't take it anymore,i fell aslp,i was suppose to watch the sun rise,but i couldn't,but guess wad,i watched the sun set.haha,will tell u bout it in day 5.

day 5:woke up in ster's room,quickly went back to mine,only to discover pig was still slping.haha,tried waking her up,couldn't,well,went to wash up and pack my bag.sob..it was the last day.eugene and himbo came over to my room,they managed to wake pig up.din haf breakfast,well,there wasn't enuff time...went for worship,on the way to the youth room,we grabbed some hotdogs.haha.uncle lai yong was speaking,though,i can't remember wat he was talking about.oh,he summed up everything he said in the week.yup,well,managed to note down some stuff,although the rest of the time,i was nodding off,everytime i was nodding off,pig nudged me.okie,this was wad i wrote down.Holiness is God's gift.Wad will i do with God's gift of holiness? 1)read the bible and it'll change my life. (read it in a way tt it's engaging) 2)PRAY (for myself,family,sch,etc) 3)Reach out, (ask God to bring ppl in my life tt's hungry for our Lord,we can be a missonary in our everyday life.How very true) then it was time to say gdbye..hugged pig and elisabeth gdbye..gonna miss elisabeth,cos she has jus gone to aus to visit laura.later during the bus ride,sat next to tim.gay,was un-whining to him and commenting on ppl.haha.yup...this time,the journey wasn't as long,bout 6hrs i guess.ster and june joined us in the bus ride.we had ice-cream.tasted pathetic.bleahx..on the way back,i cried,well,we were talking bout missons,and i was overwhelmed with emotions and i started crying...

basically,it was a gd camp,got closer to many many ppl i neva thought i would be,and especially God,really ultra super duper uber glad i went for the camp,though there were misunderstanding,all in all,it was a gd camp.i love u God. (: well, and this marks the end of my wonderful church camp.

me:
needa pack my bag,gonna haf a slpover at angie's house.woohoo.
missing my parents,cos they are away in italy.and will only be back in another's wk time.
currently reading "8o1 questions Kids ask bout God with answers frm the bible) uber interesting.
wanna slp soon.it's 0126am!

2004-06-06T12:48:00.000-07:00

BOO!!
back frm Fest of Praise!Woo Hoo..it's so awesome man.totally AWESOME!!!everyone in the indoor stadium was praising God.so ultra wonderful.if the whole entire universe can worship HIM together,tt would be totally cool.luv U my heavenly DADDY!(:Praise HIM.anyway,i totally enjoyed the worship.for those who din go:ur missing out alot!!well,but dun wry,i'm sure they will come back soon.btw,Xin,ur pastor Princez is gd.haha,u've been telling me tt,n today,i can tell how gd he is.he's on fire for God.YAH!!!i wanna be on fire too.i luv u God.ur an awesome God.u gave ur one and only son to die for us,us sinners on the cross.thankew God,thankew Father.Praise ur wonderful name (:
anyway,guess wad ppl?I TOOK A PHOTO OF MATT!hahaz,he's so cute.and he waved and smiled at me.steph can testify tt.btw,steph is rolling her eyes right now,well,she's here with me.i mean DUH.haha,guess i was tounge-tied,i said:can i take a photo OF you,
instead of:can i take a photo WITH u.haha.
had an ultra long day today...went for miss rach lim's church wedding.the mr and mrs tan are so sweet.hahaz.well,after tt,went shopping with jas at far east,only bought a hot pink bag and pair of earrings.PATHETIC right..suppose to get a hawaiian skirt..sigh,din manage to get any.but doesn't matter.i am going shopping soon.well,when i am at kuantan.YAH!!!church camp is in a day's time.can't wait.haha.okiez,no time to waste.I haven't even started packing...byez ppl.won't be blogging for another 1week.byez :)love u guyz.

PS:matt..ur so cute.haha.

2004-06-02T07:25:00.001-07:00

IF.BOREDOM.CAN.KILL.I.AM.ALREADY.DEAD
NAH!!!i am not bored,it jus sounds nice tt's why i typed tt.haha.anyway,my life is so hectic,so ultra-ly busy,so..bleahx,i haf simply no time.haha.church camp's in a week's time.YAH!!awesome,super duper awesome...can't wait.
went for hillsong worship seminar.it was utterly cool.it has been an ultra long time since we had such great worship.woohoo...festival of praise is on fri and sat.i am currently in a dilemma.shld i go shopping with mommy on fri or go for FOP instead?hm..someone pls provide me with an answer.oh,know wat?matt from hillsong is so cute.haha.he looks like ashton kutcher.yea...haha.anyway,the seminar was gd.learnt quite alot.

things i need for camp:

S.B stuff -nice cards,stickers (tick!)
chocos -elisabeth's dark choco and more (tick!)
sunglasses -to save me frm the scorching hot sun (tick!)
earrings -those ultra biggie flower kind
laptop -to upload my many many photos
bikini (?) -mad!i won't even wear it..hm..maybe i shall...
flower -pig's suggestion: "jus pluck any fresh flower in the resort"
alarm clock -i dun wanna miss breakfast!

yea..guess tt's bout it....can't wait for church camp!!!can u imagine how i am feeling?haha.wellwell,i shall start packing when the pig comes to stay over at my place.actually...i feel like packing now.haha,but i'm far too lazy.i haf no motivation.haha.but u dun need motivation to pack right?hm..God knows,i dun...okie,acutally,i am crapping.feel so utterly crappy.haha.

right now..my dear sis is shrieking.hahaz,she was singing and now,at this very moment,she is whining.as u can see,i am crapping.haha.yesyes,i know i am mad.haha,anyway,i am waiting for a super important phonecall.gonna haf conference with carox and angie.WHY?we haf to plan plankie her prezzie!plankie's gonna turn 15 soon.so very soon.plankie,i hope ur NOT reading this.

POOF!!!i am gone.haha.

me:mad.excited.

2004-05-30T00:11:00.000-07:00

boo!
i feel so super slpy, had an ultra super long day... tired, super duper tired. helped out at kss sports day, we were reliving our childhood days. haha, playing with bubbles and water bombs. so uber fun.. haha. anyway, the little kidz are so super cute.. they were super bouncey and adorable, i wanna haf lotsa kids, i wanna see my future kidz growing up with Jesus. how exciting. heehee.
met carol and then together with her, went to angie's hse, plankie too, went there to slack, well, we were suppose to study, BUT wat can u expect? we din... well, sorta, i guess..did one pathetic question, does tt count? haha, wanted to watch last samurai, it's so uber cool, wanna see the diff between hollywood vs. history, woohoo, i love history, the war, the brilliant japs, BUT we ended up watching wat a girl wants, haha, well, the rest din want to watch samurai, they said it was boring. well, wat a girl wants is a nice fairytale, watched tt before, ain't too bad. colin firth can really sing, so sweet.. haha, anywayz, we did some really cool stuff, sorta a pact, some sort of tt, man... i love them, my dear frens, they stood with me when i was going thru a rather hard time... anyway, YAH!!! i haf gotten over him, heehee, i am happy, i dunno, i can't linger on it for too long... right? sonia.. u can do so too, so dun wry bout tt jerk, u've already said so, he's a jerk, so dun wry k :)
oh, think i gained weight. ate lotsa fried carrot cake, jap food, fried oyster, etc... yum yum, thankx for supplying those food u lovely ppl.
anyway, gonna concuss soon, byez

PS: my dear sis is back frm mission trip, yah!! thank God for keeping her safe and sound :)

2004-05-29T23:04:00.000-07:00

back from OBS:
i miss OBS!
i miss kelvin!
i miss rajaratnam!
i miss pulau ubin!
i miss everything bout it.mother nature too.shoot.. i am dying to get back there.. yes,i know the pampered bimbotic pig is actually dying to get back there,haha,but it's jus sooo amazing,the sea is great,the food is not too bad.everything...i miss my instructor,he's soo...wonderfully funny lame.so super duper havoc and nice,so damn cool,and he looks like a frog.haha,BOR..ING...haha,i miss him.kedak aka wheelchair bound,i miss u.haha.
PS:up till now,i am still unsure bout ur identity.haha.

i miss the raja-ians,the bonding,i miss zhaoey,marshey,jodine,dilly,baya,sabah,nad,prawnie,
etc..i miss all of u,heyz,i am no 'playboy' k,jus cuz i am wearing tt rabbit shirt...haha,i miss all the lame jokes..yes,i was bored tt's why i asked all those wierd questions..thanx professor wierd questions for answering all of them.haha,it was pretty hilarious.so super lame.haha,oh man....raja-ians...i miss u guyz.
PS:dun forget we are suppose to go for coffee with him someday k.

anyway,life will go on as usual.
JO!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
later:
1)back to sch to collect progress report
2)lunch with angie and carol, hopefully plankie
3)movie with sonia
4)shopping with sis, and kevin (?)
5)pig staying over tonight (?)

now:
wanna go bath (:

2004-05-23T19:00:00.000-07:00

BOO!
i wanna watch TROY again.
great! carol agreed to watch with me. haha.
OBS the whole of next week..
it's gonna be my free slimming and sun tanning session. heehee.
gonna miss everyone.. haha, it's only 5 days but soo...
many things can happen in 5 days..
example: pig can fall in love with *** over again
haha. if tt's the case, i'm happy for her. haha
carol dear, u shld get a life.
talking to her on the phone now. haha, she's mad. haha
anyway, i shall go pack my bag now.
you...pls take care and be happy

me: excited, slpy

2004-05-21T08:09:00.000-07:00

i feel super sad... both sonia and i were tearing while watching troy. zhaoey was composed.. she din even shed a tear. haha. brad pitt is so ultra super duper wonderfully sweet. but he died... bleahx, all thanx to stupid, brainless coward, paris. argh... can't he and Briseis go to a faraway land and live happily ever after again...haf kids on their own, etc.. yes, it's only a moive... i know tt, but couples shld alwayz be together, tt's wat i think...
oh gosh.. brad pitt is so cute, we were pratically staring at him and his nice bod. haha. man at 40 yet still so ultra cute and sweet. lucky jennifer aniston. haha.
hector is cool, i admire him for his courage, and his love for his nation, his family, he's one gd guy. he makes a ultra gd husband. haha
anyway, hollywood vs history... did some research on troy, heehee, was super interested in troy, the greeks, etc.. anyway, the movie is super distorted... most of the parts aren't even true. 1 fine example: Patroclus was his friend, not his cousin. stupid...
well all in all, troy is a super wonderful show. brad pitt is so ultra super duper sweet. he died for a girl. how sweet can tt be?

PS: i am not infatuated with brad pitt. haha.

oh, wanna watch last samurai too, k.ang was nice enough to show us the documentary on it, unfortunately, i fell aslp, heehee.

me: dead tired, in love with the movie TROY, still nursing a borken heart

2004-05-19T21:27:00.000-07:00

boo!
i caught the flu, i feel sick...well, anyway, today was fun. haha. pig and i went to watch the van show... i smuggled food into the cinemas..can't even see wat i was eating, steph ate my leftovers. haha. thank God i din get caught for smuggling. Phew..got caught once with angie and carol. we were in sch uniform..haha...super embarrassing, those ppl certainly haf no mercy for poor little innocent green sch girls like us. well, but it was wrong of us to smuggle food, bad us..it's an offence. hm.. in the future, i shall be gd and abide by the rules. oh... thongy looks like the cute monk who had sex.. (can't remember his name) well, the monk's cute, as in little boy cute.. haha. and Frankenstein looks like *i shall not mention his name* otherwise i am gonna get slaughtered... hahaha.. pig, i am sry... heehee
anyway, van helsing or rather hugh jackman's so cute... anna and van helsing make a ultra wonderful pair.. :) unfortunately, she's dead. bleahx... why mus they haf such sad ending? can't they jus be together? won't tt be nicer and sweeter... stupid stephen sommers... well, but i mus say it's a great movie tho it has a lousy ending.. three cheers for stephen sommers.. haha
anyway, gonna watch troy on friday with zhaoey and sonia.. yah! brad pitt is so old yet still so cute. haha. hopefully it has a nice ending =) couples in love should alwayz always be together. right? Gonna be so sweet.. haha. my dear fren sonia, ur gonna see him soon, so cheer up... kk? at least u still get to see him... i feel pathetic.. well, ppl, especially pig, give me some time and i'll get over him. I will, i promise... well, i wish i dun haf to.. but then again.... i need to get a life, the past will alwayz be the past, wateva sweet memories i haf will soon pass away... i jus need time and prayers... yeap.

me: need to take a shower badly.

2004-05-16T19:29:00.000-07:00

i need to go to the beach...
i need to scream out loud:"i do not like u!"
i can finally say tt now..
no, give me 3months? 3weeks? or so...
and i'll be the same old me
the same old me 6months, 10days ago.
trust me (:
i'll be the old mad, crazy me
haha.yup..
u hurt me many times,
u made me cry not once, not twice...
many many times... uncountable
haha, nah, tt would be exaggerating
all along, i haf been the heart-breaker
finally, u came along
and u hurt me...
well, but still wanna thank you
for the sweet memories u've given me
thankew thankew thankew :)
well, when there's a beginning,
there's alwayz an end
now we've finally reach the end
this episode shall be closed...
and never to be open again.

me: trying hard

when i forget bout u,
well, if i ever do
i'll never ever like anyone again
guys are heartless.
haha, nah..i haf been hurt too deeply,
the cut in my heart's still bleeding...
(Eeekk.. cheesey, but true)
yea yea, i'll be a nun,
perhaps a spinster
yup, pretty gd idea huh? haha
but then there goes my unrealistic dream of being a tai tai
wad bout my football team? GONE!
hence, i shall and will reconsider bout being a spinster.
haha. i shall be a woman of God :)
a little confession to make:
the poems were real,
written cos i seriously like u
BUT, now they aren't..
yup...

me: mad

thankew God for solving our problems. initially, steph, joan and me had stupid, dumb BGR problems, and we wanted to go to the beach to scream...haha, well we din and we prayed bout it. guess wad? within a day, everything was solved. Yah! thank God, he's amazing (: thankew God for everything, and i mean everything, him... love, wadeva rubbish... i still thankew God for these. love u God

me: FOREVA a child of God (YAH!)

2004-05-14T07:29:00.000-07:00

1)the dumb love poems do not exist
take note: written cos i was bored, i DO NOT like anybody
(why? cos it's simply a waste of time)

2)quit deceving myself and get a life(?)

3)continue deceving myself by keeping my hopes high (?)

4)never gonna take love seriously again, ever again

me: hurt and tired

2004-05-12T21:16:00.000-07:00

i din see it coming
i din know ur love has gotten into me
i din realize someday, somehow i will need love too
always thought I was strong
I am not like others,
I need neither love or someone
used to think love was jus plain stupid and dumb
and only fools will invest their precious time into smt as equally dumb as them
pinch me someone,
I was so wrong
when I met u
u showed me wat love’s all about
ur love’s so s w e e t...
so beautiful
now tt I finally understand smt teeny weeny bout love
u haf to rob away smt so precious: ur love
I miss ur touch,
Ur smile,
Ur voice
I miss talking on the phone with u till the wee hours
I miss everything bout u
But
Everything’s over
Gone for the good
Izzit better or for the worse?

note: the above is nonsensical.written cos i was bored.

2004-05-10T07:02:00.000-07:00

Kenny Rogers
yum yum.feel fat.haha.good food.dinner with joel and munchy.joel treated me to dinner,very nice of him(: he's jus like a nice big older bro.haha.my bro-in-christ.well,got back my A maths CA.hm..guess i scored quite well,thank God for those results,i am contented. :) and..while i excelled in my CAs,the spring tests pulled my grade to a pathetic B3.aren't springy tests suppose to help me?i failed my spring tests.haha.but it's over,so it doesn't really matter.anyway,there's alwayz next term.shall go mug for chem formative ca now.wish me luck.haha.

i feel happy.very happy.haha

2004-05-09T23:01:00.000-07:00

back home frm church
one word to describe him:sweet (:
so very ultra super duper sweet.i dunno...but tt's how i feel bout him.even after 6 months and 3 days..yah,so glad,so happy tt i can finally say goodbye to tt dumb promise i made.heehee.never have i ever seen somebody like him...the look on his face...the things he writes..i dunno,it jus makes me happy..haha,he got the spelling of my name right this time.heehee.but the birthday date wrong.haha.so cute..it's may the sixth,not may the fifth my dear fren...but all these doesn't matter,the present,the letter,all of it doesn't matter..well,cos he still remembers tt i exist.heehee.i am grining frm ear to ear,yes,i am,i am happy,i haf been happy since he send me a birthday greeting.11:59:21.he remembers :)...he actually remembers...heehee.his drawing is so cute..a girl smiling...haha.there's a cake,and presents....so utterly cute n sweet..
thank God for u.with all my heart and soul,i sincerely thank my heavenly father for u.thankew for making me happy.and making me sad...there're so many things to thank you for..for simply being u,so cool,so endearing,so super ultra sweet.i pray tt u be happy,very happy,i really want u to be.to be able to smile at the silly-est thing,to be optimistic when things doesn't seem right..well,be happy my dear fren,and ur still my un-whining person,like it or not,u still are.heehee.out of all the many prezzies,i like urs the best.heehee,i am sry carol,ur prezzie's the most meaningful and sweetest,and also to the rest out there,i really really like the pink ultra fat pillow,the necklaces,the cd,wallet,tops,precious moment thingy,bla bla... but,i like his the best.cos it's frm him.heehee.yes,i know i am mad.anyway,to him:thankew so much(:
take really gd care of urself,God bless u alwayz k.

to my awesome,wonderful mom: HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!
i love u dear mother.(:

2004-05-08T17:48:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IAN!!!

okay,physics CA jus ended.i'm in sch using the com..bleahx.was whining about how difficult the paper is,ok,i still am...lets put it this way,it wasn't really difficult but i din know my facts well,well enough to get a distinction...how i wish they haf set more questions on moments instead of acceleration,velocity...well,i did study...not alot but i still did...i wanna get an A...or even a pass...a pass is super duper pathetic tho...wellwell,but thank God this entire's week's exam is over.gone for good.yah!gonna watch prelude to a kiss with simin later.can't wait.haha,thankew felix for getting the tickets for us.

thurs 060504
my birthday.haha.din haf time to write an entry,hence,here goes...
haha.jane and joel were so sweet.they made breakfast for me early in the morning.so surprised to see joel there.really super nice of them.
was kinda late for sch.received lotsa prezzies.so sweet of them.thankew ppl,i really appreciate it.heehee.after sch.carol,angie and me went to the swensons at bugis.plank joined us later.we took many many neo-prints.haha.it was fun.super fun,enjoyed spending time with them.love them.at night.tuition at tong's.when i entered the class,there were lotsa birthday wishes on the whiteboard.felt my cheeks turning tomato red.it was so embarrassing but utterly sweet of them.received a bag.haha.it looks so bimbotic,but nevertheless,i love it.haha.not tt the bag looks bimbotic but it's frm my dear frens tt's why.haha.went home.received a phone call,some sick guy called...Eeeeks...later he msged me asking whether i wanted to go for a movie...bleahx.of course not,certainly not with him.i do not like guys who are like tt...they are super despo.a big NONO.and guess wad made my day?at 1159,he msged me wishing me happy birthday.gosh,he's so super duper sweet.it really made me super happy.okie,think i am mad.haha.

2004-05-08T08:19:00.000-07:00

Prelude To A Kiss
SICK!!!haha.it was nice,enchanting,touching and funny but nevertheless SICK.haha,melody chen and rodney oliverio pratically took off all their clothes.bleahx.haha.yea,i know,tt's art,we shld appreciate art,(yaya,watevea)haha.i was covering my eyes.i mus say simin and i were the youngset there.we were making lotsa wierd noises.laughing and commenting on how sick it was.Hossan Leong is cool.he can really act,he's super duper funny.and rodney oliverio is cute.BUT he smokes.such a turn off...
i intend to watch more plays.wanna be sophisticated,demure and refine.haha.ppl whom u'll never find in such plays:ah bengs and ah lians.bleahx.let's make this clear.I do not look down on them BUT they do not deserve any respect.they are so vulgar,rude and inconsiderate.imagine this,ur in a cafeteria,trying really hard to study with ur frens and some stupid,loud pathetic ah bengs and ah lians start swaggering towards the table opposite urs.firstly,they keep playing some noisy chinese ringtones without even realizing the ringtones aren't even nice.secondly,they haf to shout across each other when they are jus hm..2metres away?bleahx.how inconsiderate.lastly,they haf to throw food particles at each other.mind you,it's...super childish.well,lets jus say their actions,mannerisms aren't very..refine and demure.sucks to the core.
yea,i am nobody to judge a person but this is jus one's perspective and opinion.wat's more this is my blog.okay,i am feeling rather mean now,i am sry.but i do not haf anything positive to say bout them,the ah bengs and ah lians.i am so sry.okay,someday,somehow,i dunno when,my opinion will change.but now,let's jus say it's the general perspective of ALL ah bengs and ah lians.sry...

2004-05-07T04:50:00.000-07:00

thanx carol!thanx for being an encourager!thanx for being a strong christian,someone whom i can alwayz rely on when i am spiritually down.thankew heavenly Father for giving me this wonderful,awesome super close,good,best fren carol. (:

AVALON: EVERYTHING TO ME
Verse one:
I grew up in Sunday School
I memorized the golden rule
And how Jesus came to set the sinner free
I know the story inside out
I can tell you all about
The path that led him up to calvary
But ask me why He loves me
And i don't know what to say
But I'll never be the same
because He changed my life when He became...

Chorus:
Everything to me
He's more than a story
More than words on a page of history
He'e the air that I breathe
The water I thirst for
And the ground beneath my feet
He's everything, everything to me

We're living in uncertain times
And more and more I find that I'm aware
Of just how fragile life can be
I want to tell the world I found
A love that turned my life around
They need to know that they can taste and see
Now everyday I'm praying
Just to give my heart away
I want to live for Jesus
so that someone else might see that He is...

Bridge:
And looking over my life at the end, I'll go to meet you saying you've been...

PS:thanx carol for sharing this song with me.It has certainly ministered and encouraged me too.Father...i want everyone to know you.to experience ur wondrous love,to know tt there's someone who's so faithful,so true,someone tt all of can rely on.thankew Father for loving me.thankew for dying on the cross for me,for paying my sins with ur blood.Love you Father.

2004-05-03T04:05:00.000-07:00

yesterday:
a great sunday.had a surprise celebration in the afternoon with the church guyz.so sweet of steph,cher and sis to organize for me.had 3slices of pizza..fattening...so super fattening.at night,mom organized for me a family birthday celebration.lotsa food..gd thing i din eat much.i din eat my 2kg birthday cake.haha.it was cheesecake with oreo cookies on top.i dun like cheesecake.wat's more.it's super fattening.experienced family joy.it was wonderful.so blessed and thankful to haf a wonderful awesome family.thankew heavenly Father. (:

today:
tired.worn out.jus came back from sch..i had a long long day.art club,some stupid cl festival thingy,a-maths CA...and the list goes on and on...feel like slping now..but i can't,have not showered,feel so dirty.have not studied for my 4more upcoming CAs...life..this is my life.the life tt i lead.the life of a teenager.BUT,i love my life.cos i haf God,and i'm living for him.not for the many CAs,the grades,or even him...but HIM,my God.i guess God is the only reason why i'm still laughing and smiling and dun feel stress.thankew God. (:

2004-05-02T22:49:00.000-07:00

back home frm church.cher's here studying.cher says hi.haha.skipped AGM,the worship was so great.so many ppl shared their testi.praise them.praise the Lord.if i had the courage,i'll share bout God' wondrous love.love u my God.(:

saw him jus now.he was in red.he was with his fren.he was laughing..guess he's happy.i want him to be happy,to be smiling.he looks so awufully nice when he smiles..walked pass him but i din dare look at him in the face.guess i am too much of a coward.wat if i had looked at him and he did not acknowledge my presence?wat will i do?sink into a state of depression?cry a river?bleahx..thanx my fren.thanx so much for letting me feel this way.feel like screaming "i do not need you,get away from me..."but then if i ever did,i would be deceiving myself.right now,i am already deceiving myself,thinking tt we'll be more than frens,keeping my hopes high.well,loving u is certainly so painful.one more week to go..one more week to see whether i shld hold on to this so called relationship...

2004-05-01T04:46:00.000-07:00

BOO!
jus had dinner.feeling super full now.was feasting on fish.it tasted super good.yumyum.haha.mommy and daddy.grandpapa and grandmama.God certainly has great plans for each and everyone of us.he knows wat each of us need and want.in this case,he has given me 2 wonderful pairs of ppl tt i love dearly.my parents and my grandparents.they are all so sweet towards each other.grandpa loves grandma with all his heart.though his face's so wrinkle,so frail,i am still able to tell by his expression,the way he talks to my grandmama,his actions...they love each other dearly.they met more than 60years ago and their undying love for each other is still so strong,so powerful.it's something that i really admire.remember asking grandma how much she love grandpa.it was a super long time ago,back then,i was naive and ignorant.(well,I still am)I needed to know all the answers to my questions right away.i wanted to know why my grandma and grandpa are together.why they love each other.wat's love all about..how did grandpa propose to grandma...grandmama gave me the answers...she laughed and started answering them.the answers so beautiful,so wonderful...yet so true.grandpapa and grandmama's actions tells it all.they have shown me what real love's all about.real love's so true,so wonderful,so divine.some ppl have tons of bfs and gfs yet up to this day,they haven't actually loved with their heart.i love my grandparents with all my heart..Save them Lord,show them that they need u.i can't imagine what will happen when one of them is gone...the other is gonna be so so devastated.but when they have you Lord,they will know that the other half is with you.how wonderful and awesome to be with u.Lord,let that be my birthday wish,soften and enter the doors of their heart.thankew heavenly father (:
-'loveless' me-

PS:my parents are madly in love with each other.i think they're at the cinemas,watching a romantic comedy.haha.they're soooo sweet.guess they're still young at heart and are relieving their old courtship days.haha.

2004-04-30T04:24:00.000-07:00

everyone's feeling stressed.cher,lizzy,mich...everyone..take care my dear frens,dun worry ya.jus rely in God,he'll provide for u.i'm very certain.jus endure for the next 1 week and then we can all go shopping.yah,we can go shop,shop till we drop dead.yah,can't wait man.haha.love shopping.lalala.haha.
hm..so far i'm not feeling stressed.well,not yet i guess,jus worn out.think i am still able to cope with the next 4CAs.well,i hope.God'll provide for me (:and we haf to look at the bright side of life.*alwayz look on the bright side of life*(sing if u know the song,it'll sing ur stress away)haha,well,we mus be optimistic.makes life more interesting.haha.dun u guys agree?
doing history project now...think it's super interesting to learn bout the war,the japs..etc..the japs are brilliant ppl.yamashita all.i mus say they are damn smart,their strategies,planning,attacks...absolutely powerful.they haf the brains.well,hopefully we'll be able to complete the project on time.it's due on mon..and we're also one of the few groups tt is presenting on mon.well,though we haf little time,i'm still super sure we'll do a gd job.LIZZIE!you can do it.ur the pro!haha.
anyway,gotta go search for more information bout WW2.byez,wish me luck.haha (:

2004-04-29T11:00:00.000-07:00

BOO! i'm happy.lalala (:

"It's a happy day
And i praise God for the weather
It's a happy day
Living it for my God
It's a happy day
Things are gonna get better
Living each day by the promises
In God's word."

glad with my life.super duper glad.thank God for u guys and especially u.well,in this blog entry,i shall not mention u,shall not talk bout u,n focus on the other important things in my life.yea.i shall try doing tt,though it may be difficult.bleahx.anyway,i'm suppose to be mugging for cl ting xie and physics moment calculation,but i can't...well,right now,it's a big nono.too happy with my life.i wanna get baptized.with steph,tim,daryl and my sis.wanna proclaim to the whole wide world tt i haf jesus and jesus lives in me.he's an awesome God.the lover of my soul.yea man.smt tt i learnt today.alwayz trust God in wateva u do,cos He knows wat's best for u.I agree to the fullest!yea,tho i'm super duper confused bout him,i shall leave it in God's hands.yea.i trust in u my one and only God :)
anyway,thankew carol,here's a super big hug for u.love u caro.and u dun haf to box him,i dun want u to do so.love u plank and angie too.haha.thankew steph,ida,simin,felix n kenny for sorta cheering me up during tuition.by planning some sort of surprise?!haha,u ppl are mad.so sweet yet so mad.sweet mad ppl.haha.and not forgetting joy,mich,jo,sonia,zhaoey...lalala.so many to thank.so many things to be thankful for.well,all in all,thankew God for frens like them and u.and also for wonderful family.love u all.lalala.haha.well,shall go mug now...i shall find joy in studying.haha.byez. :)
mad:me

PS:hey,ppl out there,pls pray for a mission team tt's going to beijing around may..yea,as u all know,there's the dreadful sars,well,jus pray God'll show them the way.n tt they'll be faithful.kk?thanx (:

2004-04-29T02:39:00.000-07:00

boo!
"so wrong to think of u.it only makes me sad,unfortunately,nothing else but tt.aren't u suppose to shower me with love and joy?maybe life would be great without u.then...there won't be the sleepless nights.the endless tears.if only things were tt simple.stop haunting me...jus get away will u?feel so trapped in this cocoon of mine.feel like a butterfly without its wings.if only u know how much i need and want u.bleahx..i sound like a despo,yes.i do.in fact,i think i'm.this sucks to the core.leave me will u.jus say a goodbye and 'poof'..u'll disappeared frm my life,forever and ever.u'll be gone like the wind,and i'll be the dust tt has been swept away by ur love.bleahx"
-girl/butterfly in distress-

yea right..if only things were tt simple huh?wad's with me?oh man...i can't listen to love songs.they jus make me think of him.no,not only love songs,in fact everything i do,everything i say,u haf a part in it.sick me.looking at the bright side of life,u've certainly made my day when u say the three sweetest words'i..like..you..'man,the way u say it,gosh,i feel so blessed..God bless u my fren.pls take gd care of urself (:

blah blah blah..

2004-04-28T17:41:00.000-07:00

jus came home frm mentoring.tired,shagged,confused..unfortunately,tt's me..dunno wad to say,dunno wad to type...

jus read his blog...
shld i be happy?
shld i be sad?
hm..i do not know...
guess i'm too exhausted to even think
take me away will u?
to a place far away
where no one can find us
to a place where we can call 'ours'
i want to fly to the moon with u
i want to hold u tight
i want to be called urs
Is this called love?
wat's love to u,my dear boy...
do u love me....?
oh man...
someone please enlighten me

'cheesey....'haha..steph,go ahead and roll ur eyes.haha.well,was inspired by a love song tt i'm listening to.guess this is jus pure infatuation... but seriously...wad's love?the cambridge dictionary says:"to love's to haf strong feelings of affection for another adult and to be romantically and sexually attracted to them"hm...tt's so easy to comprehend,yet so difficult to actually love.guess i'll never ever understand the true meaning of love.wellwell,i'm contradicting myself.but i know my awesome God,my wonderful family,my dear frens do love me.haha.there's also smt else tt's puzzling me.why can't the ppl out there accept Jesus as their personal lord and savior?they need him so so much.well,i'm sure someday they'll :) oh man..i can't wait for next thurs...can't wait to go swensons with plank,carol and hopefully angie.then we'll rock the world,we'll go create havoc.we'll relieve the old old days.haha.well,actually,on the other end,i dun want thurs to come,it will either mark the end of a so called 'relationship' or the start of a real one?!on next thurs.it'll be excatly 6 months...oh man,feeling damn confused now,maybe i shouldn't haf made this stupid promise to myself..confused:me
wat's more i'm gonna be a yr older.guess it's time for me to be more mature.haha,nah,i can't...and i won't.well,thankew mommy for giving birth to me.i know it was pretty painful...not pretty,but very very.thankew so much.thankew mommy and daddy for making love....well,tt's why there's me..haha.shall thank them again when it's nearing next thurs...
it's raining now...i dun like the rain,well,on certain occasions,i do,but not now,it jus makes one feel lonely and isolated.i dunno.i prefer the sun..the sun so bright and cheery.nice.makes one feel happier on a day like today..
well,guess i shall go haf my warm bath,take my dinner and then i shall mug for..hm.physics and chinese.yea.
byez.

PS:thanx mich.haha.
btw,i'm happy for u sonia.haha. (:

2004-04-27T02:02:00.000-07:00

thankew MICH! :)
she's really nice to make this blog for me.
haha.well,i'm a computer dinosaur,tt's why.
MICH!i really appreciate it.haha.
hm..1st blog entry?wad shall i write?
i haf no idea,guess this is a place for me to vent all my anger...
anyway,i'm listening to a super sad love song...
makes me think of him..
guess i'm still madly in love with him,after so long.
well,but then again,he's really sweet.
my conclusion:
sweet guys make me go weak in my knees.
and mich is making me admit smt tt i dunno...
haha,nice mad mich.heehee.
well, school was great to a certain extent.
haha,plank wrote me this really sweet note.
so nice and sweet of her :)
well basically,sch was fun, pretty slack.
wore my new specs to sch,
'the cheesey specs' haha.
someone said tt when i wear the specs,
i'm a bimbo turned geek.haha
mr ang said i looked angry,he said i always look like tt.
hm..i do?i dun...haha,guess it's cos of my specs?
haha,but mich,sher,simin and others said i dun..
they said i'm mad n crazy.
haha.mad ang,but he's a really nice lame softie.
he's so short and fat,so cute.
haha.mad me...
well,i certainly can't wait for church camp.
all the late nights...the bondings...
the sunrise,the shopping!
the worship!JESUS!!!
my everlasting lover (:
wellwell,i feel hungry..but i alwayz do,makes no diff
hm..guess i shall go haf my dinner and mug for e-maths later
haf better score well,i wanna get an A1
anyway,see ya
once again,thankew MICH :)
haha.byez